Discussion Financial strains/Learning how to kill myself

[Blueberry Panic]

Looking into the future I don't see myself ever getting out of the financial issues I have now. I'm mentally ill and not able to hold down a job for long without fucking it up.
I really just wish I'd die in my sleep so I didn't have to go through with any suicide methods anymore ... because I'm such a fucking failure at killing myself. One day I know I'll do it ... it's just a matter of when and how.

I just hope it's soon

 

[deadhead12!]

I can relate to you. I feel the same.

 

[Baisley]

I can totally relate to you. Have you tried to obtain SN? I don't even know how to get on the dw so I haven't obtained it myself. Maybe that could be a method for you if you could obtain it. Have you ever tried applying for full disability benefits if your mental status makes it hard to hold down a job. This is all I can think of right now . I hope u find peace.

 

[Blueberry Panic]

I can totally relate to you. Have you tried to obtain SN? I don't even know how to get on the dw so I haven't obtained it myself. Maybe that could be a method for you if you could obtain it. Have you ever tried applying for full disability benefits if your mental status makes it hard to hold down a job. This is all I can think of right now . I hope u find peace.

I've taken 2 twice and kn once , I own sn still... it's just that the purity is off.

 

[SilentEclipse]

If it were easy, there would be no one left in the world. I believe the suicidal instinct is a bit like a seesaw. So maybe you can organize as much as you want, but then when you have everything ready, it doesn't necessarily mean you have the same suicidal strength to carry out the actual act. And so we are a bit imprisoned and forced into unbearable and continuous suffering from which we escape only with just as much pain. Could life be worse?

 

[Blueberry Panic]

If it were easy, there would be no one left in the world. I believe the suicidal instinct is a bit like a seesaw. So maybe you can organize as much as you want, but then when you have everything ready, it doesn't necessarily mean you have the same suicidal strength to carry out the actual act. And so we are a bit imprisoned and forced into unbearable and continuous suffering from which we escape only with just as much pain. Could life be worse?

Mine just keeps getting worse

 

[Baisley]

Mine just keeps getting worse

Trust me my situation is horrible too. I want a way out but can't figure out anything. It's like I'm brain dead and I can't remember anything barely either. I relate so much to you and I'm sorry for your pain.