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whatintheworld365

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Jul 15, 2021
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Back in July, I finally bit the bullet and bought 2 bottles of N from D. It came without a hitch, and has since sat in my pantry, waiting for the right time. I finally realize I do not need to do this, and no longer feel like it's a security blanket that I once needed. I'm going to keep trying to get healthy instead, and once and for all get rid of it completely.
 
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mentalhealthfighter

mentalhealthfighter

Lets win together
Jun 15, 2021
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Why not keep it, just in case? Not trying to persuade you to CTB but even if I wasnt suicidal i would still want to have it
 
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whatintheworld365

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Jul 15, 2021
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Because as long as I have it, I'm not letting go of that ideology. Wish I could send it back for a refund, honestly lol it came with meto and everything.
 
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mentalhealthfighter

mentalhealthfighter

Lets win together
Jun 15, 2021
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Because as long as I have it, I'm not letting go of that ideology. Wish I could send it back for a refund, honestly lol it came with meto and everything.
Maybe you could send it to another suicidal user on here? Or would that be too homicidal?
 
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whatintheworld365

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Jul 15, 2021
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Maybe you could send it to another suicidal user on here? Or would that be too homicidal?
I have no problem doing that if they want to pay what I paid for it! I remember feeling desperate before I had it as no other methods I had tried or toyed with worked.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best. I hope things work out for you in terms of getting better. It is understandable wanting to get rid of the ctb materials when you do not plan on exiting this world.
 
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WaterHemlock

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Dec 18, 2019
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I'm so glad you're feeling better and not so desperate.
I'm happy for you and you have my best wishes.
 
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Peel_the_Banana

Good Bye
Aug 2, 2021
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Maybe you could send it to another suicidal user on here? Or would that be too homicidal?
I have no problem doing that if they want to pay what I paid for it! I remember feeling desperate before I had it as no other methods I had tried or toyed with worked.


You do know that this could potentially get you in trouble with LE. Not to mention its against forum rules.
 
A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
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Back in July, I finally bit the bullet and bought 2 bottles of N from D. It came without a hitch, and has since sat in my pantry, waiting for the right time. I finally realize I do not need to do this, and no longer feel like it's a security blanket that I once needed. I'm going to keep trying to get healthy instead, and once and for all get rid of it completely.
I don't know you at all, but I'm always happy to read that people here are willing to try to get better. It's wonderful news!! Thank you for doing this!! I hope you'll be happy!!
I wonder why you didn't post it in Recovery section though…..
Anyways, you're already doing great!!!
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