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Klo
Physical pain and depression
- Mar 27, 2022
- 169
I finally got medical proof of a lifelong condition that will eventually take away my ability to walk. Still the dr is downplaying other aspects of my condition despite childhood diagnosis of RA. I don't really see any value in living in excruciating pain but I was willing to try to get treatment. When I don't spend the whole day and sometimes night in pain I think about ctb less. Also I can't tell the dr about my thoughts because I need them to be able to treat pain without worrying I might commit suicide. I wish my condition would also take my life but I am not lucky in that way. If I go I will still have to do it myself. This world is so unfair. It should not be so hard to exit if that is what you want to choose.