Help Finally got my method ready, today is the day!

[vacuums]

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who replied on my venting post, I was blown away by the support and I read them all but I couldn't bring myself to reply directly, it was just too upsetting. Today I will ctb by hanging, I have tested my set up (I think I'm going to make a more detailed reply in the hanging megathread before I go, for anyone interested in my experience with the test) I could have just passed out and ctb right then and there, but (this is kind of funny/embarrassing now that I'm saying it out loud) I wanted to have my favorite music playing while I died so I forced myself out of it. I am about ~95% certain that I will not fail, and the thought brings me so much peace, and only a little sadness.

Now, my question to you is:
Does anyone have any last minute suggestions for things I should do to make sure everything goes smoothly and minimize aftermath? I haven't written a note, but I have several diaries that should pretty much sum up why I did this. Should I write some sort of note/will? The last time I ate or drank was 18 hours ago, if I use the restroom before this should I take any other precautions to prevent, ahem, making a mess of myself? I've thought about texting my sister and telling her that I'm studying for an important test and not to disturb me when she gets home (shouldn't be for another 4 hours but still), to eliminate any chance of getting "saved". I know that seems sinister, but I don't have any better ideas, I'm open to suggestions. Just want this whole thing to be as painless as possible for everyone around me. I will truly be happier and in a better place once this is over.

Thank you.

 

[JustAboutDone]

I feel a lightness in your spirit and happiness in your text; may everything go smoothly and you fly swiftly on huge fluffy wings to the other side!

Love and hugs xxxxx

 

[therhydler]

You are very brave. I hope it will be as peaceful as possible.

 

[SiArc]

If the diaries sum it all up I wouldn't worry about the note unless you feel a final I love you is needed.

The text is a good idea. I would do that just in case someone comes back early. Seems you have the "mess" part covered.

I wish you a swift and painless death. May peace find you.

 

[21Neberg]

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who replied on my venting post, I was blown away by the support and I read them all but I couldn't bring myself to reply directly, it was just too upsetting. Today I will ctb by hanging, I have tested my set up (I think I'm going to make a more detailed reply in the hanging megathread before I go, for anyone interested in my experience with the test) I could have just passed out and ctb right then and there, but (this is kind of funny/embarrassing now that I'm saying it out loud) I wanted to have my favorite music playing while I died so I forced myself out of it. I am about ~95% certain that I will not fail, and the thought brings me so much peace, and only a little sadness.

Now, my question to you is:
Does anyone have any last minute suggestions for things I should do to make sure everything goes smoothly and minimize aftermath? I haven't written a note, but I have several diaries that should pretty much sum up why I did this. Should I write some sort of note/will? The last time I ate or drank was 18 hours ago, if I use the restroom before this should I take any other precautions to prevent, ahem, making a mess of myself? I've thought about texting my sister and telling her that I'm studying for an important test and not to disturb me when she gets home (shouldn't be for another 4 hours but still), to eliminate any chance of getting "saved". I know that seems sinister, but I don't have any better ideas, I'm open to suggestions. Just want this whole thing to be as painless as possible for everyone around me. I will truly be happier and in a better place once this is over.

Thank you.

I can feel your happiness through the text! I wish you the best of luck in overcoming your survival instinct.

 

[Philip]

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who replied on my venting post, I was blown away by the support and I read them all but I couldn't bring myself to reply directly, it was just too upsetting. Today I will ctb by hanging, I have tested my set up (I think I'm going to make a more detailed reply in the hanging megathread before I go, for anyone interested in my experience with the test) I could have just passed out and ctb right then and there, but (this is kind of funny/embarrassing now that I'm saying it out loud) I wanted to have my favorite music playing while I died so I forced myself out of it. I am about ~95% certain that I will not fail, and the thought brings me so much peace, and only a little sadness.

Now, my question to you is:
Does anyone have any last minute suggestions for things I should do to make sure everything goes smoothly and minimize aftermath? I haven't written a note, but I have several diaries that should pretty much sum up why I did this. Should I write some sort of note/will? The last time I ate or drank was 18 hours ago, if I use the restroom before this should I take any other precautions to prevent, ahem, making a mess of myself? I've thought about texting my sister and telling her that I'm studying for an important test and not to disturb me when she gets home (shouldn't be for another 4 hours but still), to eliminate any chance of getting "saved". I know that seems sinister, but I don't have any better ideas, I'm open to suggestions. Just want this whole thing to be as painless as possible for everyone around me. I will truly be happier and in a better place once this is over.

Thank you.

Hope it's painless and peaceful......bless you

 

[Dead Meat]

I wish you a very peaceful journey and may you have everlasting peace and tranquility.

 

[JOT]

Good night Vacuums. I'm so sorry it came to this for you. Like others have stated, you sound peaceful and light in the way you talk. I wish you that in abundance whatever you decide to do xx

 

[Lady black]

Good luck and a peaceful hanging

 

[Nohopepebble]

I hope everything goes perfectly. I'm glad you will finally be happy x

 

[ReadyasEver]

A peaceful journey my friend, enjoy the deserved rest.

 

[Koleasha]

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who replied on my venting post, I was blown away by the support and I read them all but I couldn't bring myself to reply directly, it was just too upsetting. Today I will ctb by hanging, I have tested my set up (I think I'm going to make a more detailed reply in the hanging megathread before I go, for anyone interested in my experience with the test) I could have just passed out and ctb right then and there, but (this is kind of funny/embarrassing now that I'm saying it out loud) I wanted to have my favorite music playing while I died so I forced myself out of it. I am about ~95% certain that I will not fail, and the thought brings me so much peace, and only a little sadness.

Now, my question to you is:
Does anyone have any last minute suggestions for things I should do to make sure everything goes smoothly and minimize aftermath? I haven't written a note, but I have several diaries that should pretty much sum up why I did this. Should I write some sort of note/will? The last time I ate or drank was 18 hours ago, if I use the restroom before this should I take any other precautions to prevent, ahem, making a mess of myself? I've thought about texting my sister and telling her that I'm studying for an important test and not to disturb me when she gets home (shouldn't be for another 4 hours but still), to eliminate any chance of getting "saved". I know that seems sinister, but I don't have any better ideas, I'm open to suggestions. Just want this whole thing to be as painless as possible for everyone around me. I will truly be happier and in a better place once this is over.

Thank you.

What method are you using? I'm looking for a way out too!

 

[Retched]

Hope you find the peace you seek.

 

[Dead_Inside]

You have all the luck I have to give. Everything sounds perfect. Maybe just put a note for your sister on the door. I did that on my first attempt- I was not in a good place and had done a fair amount of self harm beforehand and finding a dead and very bloody person was not something I wanted for the person I knew would come next.
Have a swift journey- find your peace.

 

[Final Escape]

Hope it goes good and u have a peaceful quick passing. :("

 

[RyanSuicide]

Be prepared for that survival instinct. That thing is one mother fucker

 

[Deivis]

I wish everyone to have your courage! Chin up! Live by your own rules, die by your rules!
Will meet you in eternal bliss some day!