deep-sleeper
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- Aug 16, 2025
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[DISCLAIMER] obvious TW. Additionally, I hope that no one gets encouraged by this post. Pls don't do what I do!
So after so many years of not being able to do it, I finally had enough courage and reason to cut myself until I actually bled.
My place of choice will be my shoulders, as it is easier to hide and it is less sensitive than a place like my chest, my tool of choice is using my whole shaving razor, instead of using single blades, as I am not planning to go deep enough to get hospitalized, and the razor handle helps me with "depth management". I think taking a bath before cutting also helped, because I tried doing the same thing with dry skin and it didn't work.
The cut itself was pretty mild, just 5 small cuts that didn't bleed much (technically more, if I count the multiple blades in my razor). The only problem now is hiding the cuts and taking care of them.
The aftermath: I found it interesting that I took a few seconds to realize the pain, I could feel the blade slashing my skin, but I thought that I had failed. Immediately after I feel extremely overwhelmed and zoned out, I'm not sure if that was due to the cut or the water vapor. Putting on clothes also proved to be a challenge, as I was itchy the rest of the day. One good thing that I see is that I now have new scabs to pick on. I miss picking on bruises that were caused by my middle school classmates' constant bullying, now I have to get them all by myself, and it also helped making my brain shut the fuck up
So after so many years of not being able to do it, I finally had enough courage and reason to cut myself until I actually bled.
My place of choice will be my shoulders, as it is easier to hide and it is less sensitive than a place like my chest, my tool of choice is using my whole shaving razor, instead of using single blades, as I am not planning to go deep enough to get hospitalized, and the razor handle helps me with "depth management". I think taking a bath before cutting also helped, because I tried doing the same thing with dry skin and it didn't work.
The cut itself was pretty mild, just 5 small cuts that didn't bleed much (technically more, if I count the multiple blades in my razor). The only problem now is hiding the cuts and taking care of them.
The aftermath: I found it interesting that I took a few seconds to realize the pain, I could feel the blade slashing my skin, but I thought that I had failed. Immediately after I feel extremely overwhelmed and zoned out, I'm not sure if that was due to the cut or the water vapor. Putting on clothes also proved to be a challenge, as I was itchy the rest of the day. One good thing that I see is that I now have new scabs to pick on. I miss picking on bruises that were caused by my middle school classmates' constant bullying, now I have to get them all by myself, and it also helped making my brain shut the fuck up
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