Final Goodbye

[HollowCreek]

I don't know what to say. I'm shaking. I'm crying. I'm thinking of my cat wandering around, wondering where I'm gone. It's okay. She'll be taken care of. I dropped my sister off at school today, and she has no idea that that's the last time that she'll see me. I don't think I'm a good person by any means, but my family loves me, and at this point, I feel like my suicide is more about their pain than mine.My mother knows something's going to happen, but that doesn't mean she won't be shocked and inconsolable. I'm about to start driving away for three hours to a hotel in the middle of nowhere where I'll take SN. I've been fasting for around 24 hours now. I think I'll take a shower first, just because I love hot showers, but... I can't even begin to describe the feeling that I'm going through. It's not my pity that I'm thinking about, it's really just my family. My family doesn't deserve to lose a daughter like this. But I know that even if I stopped right now, there's really nothing that could be done in order to make me want to stayI want to stay in bed with my cat a minute longer. But the longer I stay, the more painful it is. And of course, because I'm such a procrastinator, I've left writing all the notes still today. So, I think I'll finish all the notes when I get to the hotel, and then I'll take the SN, and that'll be it. So, I hope you all have a far more peaceful time than I will. But... This is torturous. I just wish death was easier than this..

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering.

 

[untraveler]

I am sorry to hear it. I hope whatever you decide will go as you wish. :(

Do you know what would you write in your notes/letters and to whom?

 

[MathConspiracy]

I wish you a painless and peaceful journey. Remember, it's okay to back out, we'll be here for you no matter what you choose.

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

That sounds absolutely difficult and hard... I hope you are sure. And find relief no matter what you decide!

 

[hop33xit]

love u

 

[Tombs_in_your_eyes]

I can really feel the suffering in your post It is so, so hard and painful to commit to dying. We are here for you whatever you decide.

 

[deadbidaylight]

My heart hurts for you reading your post. It's very raw and real and I can feel the pain emanating off my screen. You've been reflecting a lot of what you're leaving behind, and I think that's a normal part of the process. I'm sorry that it's so painful.

I hope that your passing is peaceful and swift, and that you end up in a much better place than where you are.

And remember there is no shame in changing your mind. We are here to support you no matter the outcome. Thinking of you.

 

[DeadSet]

I hope you find the peace you are seeking

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

May you find peace, an end to this sad world.