Story Final acts of kindness

[msnfjekxn]

Ive always wanted to maybe one day be able to feel true kindness or love from someone, Ive always wanted to also be able to gift it myself, not just to a person, but to communities, to people in need, to animals, anyone.

Ive decided that these last days while Im still walking on this planet, I could make a few differences here and there. Today I saw an old person resting near the entrance of a convinience store. I wanted to give them some money, I did, my last 10 euros, its all I had, I wish I could have given them more. I actually put them in their bag because when I got out of the store they werent there. I was glad to see them coming back as I was walking away from the store. I wish I couldve stayed to see them smile, but Im still happy that they most likely did when they saw the money.

 

[l1ablemistakes]

I totally get wanting to go out in kindness and peace. I'm having a will enacted. But if that's bit easy, I'm doing some other things too.

First is donating blood. As much as I can before I die.

Second is being an organ donor. Who knows at what point I'll be found.

Thirdly I'm donating my hair. A few weeks before I will cut / shave it all off.

I do want to sort my clothes into boxes for donation vs giving to my friends, but it feels too much.

 

[msnfjekxn]

I totally get wanting to go out in kindness and peace. I'm having a will enacted. But if that's bit easy, I'm doing some other things too.

First is donating blood. As much as I can before I die.

Second is being an organ donor. Who knows at what point I'll be found.

Thirdly I'm donating my hair. A few weeks before I will cut / shave it all off.

I do want to sort my clothes into boxes for donation vs giving to my friends, but it feels too much.

Wow, you sound like an amazing person, geniuenly. I wish I could do all of that, but its a bit difficult from my current position, at least. I dont have much energy to do anything anymore. Im just waiting to get the SN and until then I guess Im just rotting, crying and trying to keep myself composed whenever Im forced to interact with someone.

 

[l1ablemistakes]

Wow, you sound like an amazing person, geniuenly. I wish I could do all of that, but its a bit difficult from my current position, at least. I dont have much energy to do anything anymore. Im just waiting to get the SN and until then I guess Im just rotting, crying and trying to keep myself composed whenever Im forced to interact with someone.

I'm not. I just feel so guilty. I dont have the energy either. I'm just an idealist.