Help Fiance just left me

[Soapie]

I'm so scared of the future. I can't take this right now. I'm acting so stoic he thinks I'm okay. I'm fucked. Holy fucking shit what the fuck do I do now???? He did it so easily. I spent so much effort and he just up and left and I just... I don't understand and I'm frantic and I got way too high and I'm so fucking fucked. I can't kill myself yet but god I want to so bad. I'm technically homeless right now but I have people looking after me who will know if I do something. At this point I'm just looking for somewhere to move into alone so no one is suspicious. I just need get people to stop checking up on me like this. The second I'm alone I'm doing it. Welcoming back SS into my life I guess, woohoo

 

[cgcgcgcg]

Welcome back - I hope you are able to find some peace and perhaps answers here.

From what I've seen so far, it's a very warm, welcoming community. I hope you receive it the same way I have.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

You have a ctb method all set up and ready? How long had you stayed off SS?

Yeah people leaving is fucking horrifying as fuck. Idk how anyone recovers from that shit lol. I really don't. Especially all the effort and trust that went into it.

 

[waitingforrest]

Welcome back, although I wish it would be in better circumstances.

I don't understand the full extent of your relationship with your fiance, but it must really hurt to be so close to someone and have them just leave.

Losing people really is never easy, especially for people who don't have anyone else. I sometimes wonder too, why people just move on so easily.

The pain of losing a relationship is one that can drive people to ctb, I know it did for me. Putting all your trust and effort into a person and to just have them throw it away, It may hurt when someone leaves us, but when it is someone we trust, it can feel unbearable.

I hope that SS is able to provide a bit of support for you.

 

[FuneralCry]

It can be devastating and painful for people to leave. I'm sorry you are going through this. I know that it can be unbearable to be suffering so much and I understand the feeling of desperation. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[sad_gurl_thoughts]

I'm so sorry you're going through this.

I didn't lose a fiancé, just a partner, and the heartache sometimes brings me to my knees, even weeks later. It's terrible to lose someone you love who you thought cared about you.

No advice unfortunately, but I understand where you are emotionally because I'm in a similar place. Also trying not to end my life over it while desperately wanting the pain to end…

 

[Looooser]

Take one day at a time remember to breathe. On a positive note it does sound like you have friends that care about you? Maybe you'll be able to lean on them during this hard time. Big hugs

 

[raghu1977]

Normally - I would say every one's pain is their own. And no one can judge another's pain or dictate if/when they should ctb.

But it seems to me that you want to ctb because your fiance left you. I think you should just say 'fuck him' and live your best life. Dont ctb just because of some asshole.

I am probably overstepping my bounds here. If I am - I apologize. This is just my .02$