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Pi_R_Squared

Member
May 13, 2021
15
My wife and I took 4mg of fentanyl each, along with a handful of xanax, and 3 bottles of champagne.

I woke up this morning, she did not.

I will hang myself today.

Good luck friends.
 
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OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
That sounds horrible! Sorry it had to end this way for you. I wish you a speedy and peaceful exit.
 
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Nymph

Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
2,564
Damn, sorry to hear that
 
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anaschariac

anaschariac

the worst person in the whole world
Aug 26, 2021
8
I'm so sorry you had to go through this... I hope you will be at peace, no matter what you do. Good luck to you.
 
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Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
1,474
I'm really sorry to hear that. Must have been absolutely awful. I wouldn't even know if I'd have to try ctb immediately after waking or call what ever you need to call after seeing someone dead. I guess ctbing right now would save you from extra work and pain that comes after discovering a dead body. And of course from the extra pain that comes from failing an attempt while spouse succeeds. Well, whatever way feels correct for you, I hope you can do it. And I hope you can soon meet your wife in the hereafter.
 
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TriggerHappy

TriggerHappy

In the kingdom of th blind; the one-eyed are kings
Jan 24, 2021
1,297
My wife and I took 4mg of fentanyl each, along with a handful of xanax, and 3 bottles of champagne.

I woke up this morning, she did not.

I will hang myself today.

Good luck friends.

DO NOT GO GENTLE INTO THAT GOOD NIGHT...​

trust yr instincts, don't look for signs & omens...
You are / will not be alone...

(u both in my thoughts & prayers)
much love
 
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nottheend

nottheend

When will enough be enough!!
Sep 8, 2021
99
My wife and I took 4mg of fentanyl each, along with a handful of xanax, and 3 bottles of champagne.

I woke up this morning, she did not.

I will hang myself today.

Good luck friends.
Wow sorry to hear that mate.
 
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summers

Visionary
Nov 4, 2020
2,493
Damn, so sorry.

For everyone else, weight matters with drugs. You need to calculate the mg per kg needed to be fatal. F is cheap, if I were going to use it to ctb, I'm buying a gram, and shooting 500mg.

Edit: if you shoot enough f, you'll be dead before you can pull the syringe out of your arm.
 
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Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
All I can really say is I'm truly and utterly sorry. If you do re-join your wife today I wish you both peace. Sending all the love I can in such a painful time.
 
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Pi_R_Squared

Member
May 13, 2021
15
2 MG is a lethal dose, we erred on the safe side.
 
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bad luck

bad luck

Memento mori
Mar 2, 2021
772
I'm so sorry. Does it mean that it worked for your wife but not for you?
 
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Pi_R_Squared

Member
May 13, 2021
15
Damn, so sorry.

For everyone else, weight matters with drugs. You need to calculate the mg per kg needed to be fatal. F is cheap, if I were going to use it to ctb, I'm buying a gram, and shooting 500mg.

Edit: if you shoot enough f, you'll be dead before you can pull the syringe out of your arm.
2MG is a lethal dose for anyone without an opiate tolerance
I'm so sorry. Does it mean that it worked for your wife but not for you?
Yes, she's passed
you probably weighed more kilograms in body weight. it's lethality by mg/kg. Where did you get pure F? i would try it for me but i'd take a gram for me to be sure.
I also took handfuls of xanax which potentiate it, and I got it fro someone who is prescribed patches, and used the patch in my cheek as that speeds absorption.

Dozens of benzos, 4mg of pure fentanyl and 3 bottles of champagne should kill anyone, and yet I feel fine physically.
 
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bad luck

Memento mori
Mar 2, 2021
772
I really regret your experience. I hope you can rest with her soon. A warm hug
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
Omg. This sounds horrendous. I can't even imagine what you're going through right now. I'm so very sorry. It must a nightmare for you. I hope next time for you is gonna be as peaceful as it was for your wife. I'm really sorry
 
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Samsara

Samsara

Experienced
Mar 9, 2020
246
I'm so sorry.... I hope you find peace
 
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logan

Warlock
May 20, 2021
705
This is really unimaginable ...

I am at a loss for words.
 
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Pi_R_Squared

Member
May 13, 2021
15
Thanks for the kind words, she's currently still looking peaceful in bed I haven't notified the authorities as I want to be found with her. I'm 15 mins away from joining her if nothing else interferes
 
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xLosthopex

Tell my dogs I love them
May 29, 2020
1,133
Oh my goodness I am so sorry, this sounds like a horrible situation, sending love
 
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Anonymous_A

Arcanist
Oct 4, 2020
411
Thanks for the kind words, she's currently still looking peaceful in bed I haven't notified the authorities as I want to be found with her. I'm 15 mins away from joining her if nothing else interferes
How long has she been dead in bed?...however long that's a crazy situation
 
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Pi_R_Squared

Member
May 13, 2021
15
How long has she been dead in bed?...however long that's a crazy situation
12 hours or so, I needed to update will and so on as I'm now survivor, don't want anything to go wrong legally cuz I fucked up paperwork.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,269
I'm sorry this has happened. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
 
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Alwaysbadtime

Enlightened
Jun 28, 2021
1,158
Did you call the cops and they removed her body?

Take care. Sounds very bad.
 
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StevieNixs

Specialist
Jul 22, 2021
316
12 hours or so, I needed to update will and so on as I'm now survivor, don't want anything to go wrong legally cuz I fucked up paperwork.
Please let it be known that you did not take her life. The media love to spin it that way to make the other person appear to be some sort of monster. I am very sorry about what happened to you.xx
 
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bogdana73

Member
Aug 17, 2021
6
I'm sorry this has happened. I hope you find your peace.
 
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Pi_R_Squared

Member
May 13, 2021
15
Please let it be known that you did not take her life. The media love to spin it that way to make the other person appear to be some sort of monster. I am very sorry about what happened to you.xx
She left a video for her family to ensure that doesn't happen
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,715
Godspeed. I hope you reunite with your wife soon.
 
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TobyPadres

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Sep 10, 2021
18
What a real crap situation, im hoping you dind toir own peace soon