Feelings

[crimson blue]

I often have a combination of sadness and happiness. Sadness because it hurts me a lot to accept that despite everything I did not achieve my goal, happiness because I really tried, maybe I should have done something differently, I don't know, however I did the best I could under the circumstances in which I was.

After this I wonder, should I keep trying? Is it time to rest now? when is enough?

If there is life after death there is someone I would like to talk to, I wonder what he thought? I know that there are people who were not very fond of him in life for good reason, so I ask myself, is it okay for me to appreciate him? if he had lived longer, would we also have been hurt?

I still do not plan ctb but they are feelings that live inside of me.

Excuse me, do you think that this type of posts should go offtopic or is it okay here?

 

[jodes2]

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I often have a combination of sadness and happiness. Sadness because it hurts me a lot to accept that despite everything I did not achieve my goal, happiness because I really tried, maybe I should have done something differently, I don't know, however I did the best I could under the circumstances in which I was.

After this I wonder, should I keep trying? Is it time to rest now? when is enough?

If there is life after death there is someone I would like to talk to, I wonder what he thought? I know that there are people who were not very fond of him in life for good reason, so I ask myself, is it okay for me to appreciate him? if he had lived longer, would we also have been hurt?

I still do not plan ctb but they are feelings that live inside of me.

Excuse me, do you think that this type of posts should go offtopic or is it okay here?

The post is fine here if it relates at all to suicidal feelings which it seems it does, sorry you feel like this

 

[FuneralCry]

I guess that after all, only you know when it's the right time to leave this world. Existing can certainly be painful and cruel and it must be tiring what you go through. At least to me the only comfort is the fact that this will all be forgotten about someday and whatever we experienced in life could never possibly matter to us in any way eventually, as it's our fate to cease to exist. I've never believed in life after death.