Venting Feeling unwanted

[gomikasu]

Turns out that my "girlfriend" has been decieving me about her needing money for her mother's cancer treatment (rip $20k) and been having a lesbian relationship behind my back. I didn't want to live prior to this but at this point there's no fucking point, especially when she's telling me to live for her. The plan is jumping either infront of a train or off a 96m bridge into the ocean before the end of the year. Train success rate is about 90% and the bridge should be more than 98%, which is the golden gate bridge's rate, but this one's an extra 20m further.

 

[cantdecidenameeven]

Hey, you only had the best intentions and did your best with the information you had at the time. I understand the decision to kill oneself is a combination of factors. But honestly? don't make this your tipping point. $20k loss sucks yes, and she is a bitch yes, but don't let this be your breaker. It's just not worth it. Sometimes you gotta do your best to outlive the haters and those who wronged you. It's the ultimate revenge. Understand I'm not undermining the pain inflicted by your situation.

Also talk to a lawyer about the $20k, I guarantee you there's something to do there but I don't want to give advice with 0 information. Talk to as many free consultation lawyers as you can, and keep adding up that info.

 

[gomikasu]

Hey, you only had the best intentions and did your best with the information you had at the time. I understand the decision to kill oneself is a combination of factors. But honestly? don't make this your tipping point. $20k loss sucks yes, and she is a bitch yes, but don't let this be your breaker. It's just not worth it. Sometimes you gotta do your best to outlive the haters and those who wronged you. It's the ultimate revenge. Understand I'm not undermining the pain inflicted by your situation.

Also talk to a lawyer about the $20k, I guarantee you there's something to do there but I don't want to give advice with 0 information. Talk to as many free consultation lawyers as you can, and keep adding up that info.

The money isn't even the issue. I've got $500k+ in the bank. I've been incredibly unhappy for years and have reached my breaking point. I don't really think a lawyer will be able to do much for me because I have given all of this to her willingly, the most I could do would be get her charged for gift tax. Also I'm fairly sure she lied about her full name too, so I don't think much can be done.

 

[cantdecidenameeven]

The money isn't even the issue. I've got $500k+ in the bank. I've been incredibly unhappy for years and have reached my breaking point. I don't really think a lawyer will be able to do much for me because I have given all of this to her willingly, the most I could do would be get her charged for gift tax. Also I'm fairly sure she lied about her full name too, so I don't think much can be done.

I'm assuming you're in GODDAMN AMERICA RAHHH where you can sue anybody for just about anything, and you can afford it. You can afford to drag it as long as you want, she's fucked on the other hand. all those billable hours building up....also there's no chance you sent $20k to someone with a fake name. Unless you did crypto or some shit. Check the receipts, check everything, just contact a lawyer. Get your legal revenge and right. Not even about the cash anymore. But I can understand if that's not something you really care for. Sorry that life has been harsh.

ps. this might be charity fraud or some shit, since she was the collector of her mom's "funding" and you were a donor. trust me, a good lawyer will find something for you. but again, totally valid if you don't care enough to do anything about this. I won't press you further about this
Anyways, I can relate and sympathize with the feeling of being unwanted. It sucks when all you really want is love.

 

[gomikasu]

I'm assuming you're in GODDAMN AMERICA RAHHH where you can sue anybody for just about anything, and you can afford it. You can afford to drag it as long as you want, she's fucked on the other hand. all those billable hours building up....also there's no chance you sent $20k to someone with a fake name. Unless you did crypto or some shit. Check the receipts, check everything, just contact a lawyer. Get your legal revenge and right. Not even about the cash anymore. But I can understand if that's not something you really care for. Sorry that life has been harsh.

ps. this might be charity fraud or some shit, since she was the collector of her mom's "funding" and you were a donor. trust me, a good lawyer will find something for you. but again, totally valid if you don't care enough to do anything about this. I won't press you further about this
Anyways, I can relate and sympathize with the feeling of being unwanted. It sucks when all you really want is love.

While I am American, she's Japanese
This all happened in Japan and was all cash, so there's no receipts unfortunately. It's not even really worth the effort to me to be quite honest. The biggest power play I think I have is a suicide livestream and calling them both out and publishing all of my information on both of them to demonize them in the eyes of the public. Saying this all out loud really makes me look like a retard doesn't it lmao.

 

[cantdecidenameeven]

While I am American, she's Japanese
This all happened in Japan and was all cash, so there's no receipts unfortunately. It's not even really worth the effort to me to be quite honest. The biggest power play I think I have is a suicide livestream and calling them both out and publishing all of my information on both of them to demonize them in the eyes of the public. Saying this all out loud really makes me look like a retard doesn't it lmao.

I don't know a bigger revenge would be getting a better girl that's better than her in everything and treats you better, and then spoiling her. She would seethe over that shit. I don't fw your plan at all.

 

[Sutter]

While I am American, she's Japanese
This all happened in Japan and was all cash, so there's no receipts unfortunately. It's not even really worth the effort to me to be quite honest. The biggest power play I think I have is a suicide livestream and calling them both out and publishing all of my information on both of them to demonize them in the eyes of the public. Saying this all out loud really makes me look like a retard doesn't it lmao.

Kraken.

For the love of a woman, give yourself a pause. That concept runs all through the past steps of mankind and can include all love one has for another. Wouldn't say you are mentally challenged, honestly met some really smart people that were, you ran up on the second life, not a bad run. Life itself is deaths obstacle course. The second life is the depth of human emotions. If the first was an obstacle course the second is like catching a chicken on fire running across a lava field buck naked with an octopus stuck to your face.

In other words, somewhere we will fail, house rules. Want to throw curses and give neighbors heart attacks, worst things have been done for love. Cut yourself some slack.

This next may singe your nethers so you know.

Life and everything in it is not fair. Everything moves through time and changes even if we don't want it to, even love. Would be my guess there are other reasons for CTB. If you're gonna go let it be for those. Don't get me wrong I'm not a forgiving man myself so I understand revenge. Personally, this did not come from me, I would get a couple packs of super glue and pay a visit to the undie drawer, glue that crap up. I'm old but still 5, so if I can get revenge with a chuckle that's a two for one. Money is gone, girl is gone and other than the Lego kraken glue gun it's all wrapped up.

Now that the horrible inappropriate chatter is done. Take a look at what you need, set your world as best you can to meet the path you want.

If the kraken gets used would imagine a bowl of popcorn would be in order as life is coming for her too. Rest a moment watch gomikasu because she may now be chasing that chicken.

 

[gomikasu]

I gave her one more chance, under the threat of her suicide and I ended up paying for her to play with some other guy, which coindincedentaly happens to have been the same day when she was blocked on all forms of messaging by what I'm assuming was her lesbian instrest. A legal battle won't get me anywhere because it ends up with her whoring herself out to pay me back which I don't really want to do, even if everything up until now has been a lie. The one thing I take solace in is that I have no issues beating the shit out of this bastard rather than a woman, so I at least can vent out some of my anger there. I tried to live for someone else and that clearly didn't work, unlucky I guess. I feel like I should try and at least talk this through, but maybe I'm just too forgiving because I have long since given up on life and have nothing to lose. I am fortunate enough to be in contact with a few people who have a fairly large following in the same sphere of people as my "girlfriend" so I can at a bare minimum put her and whoever she seems to be playing with at the time on full blast. I hadn't considered until now, but I could also pay for ads on the social networking sites she uses with this information. There's also a third option of playing the long game and getting her a new phone which I have complete remote access to and can then expose all of her dirty laundry. I'm still kind of conflicted on this because I still care about her, though I guess if I've already CTB'ed it doesn't really matter.

Kraken.

For the love of a woman, give yourself a pause. That concept runs all through the past steps of mankind and can include all love one has for another. Wouldn't say you are mentally challenged, honestly met some really smart people that were, you ran up on the second life, not a bad run. Life itself is deaths obstacle course. The second life is the depth of human emotions. If the first was an obstacle course the second is like catching a chicken on fire running across a lava field buck naked with an octopus stuck to your face.

In other words, somewhere we will fail, house rules. Want to throw curses and give neighbors heart attacks, worst things have been done for love. Cut yourself some slack.

This next may singe your nethers so you know.

Life and everything in it is not fair. Everything moves through time and changes even if we don't want it to, even love. Would be my guess there are other reasons for CTB. If you're gonna go let it be for those. Don't get me wrong I'm not a forgiving man myself so I understand revenge. Personally, this did not come from me, I would get a couple packs of super glue and pay a visit to the undie drawer, glue that crap up. I'm old but still 5, so if I can get revenge with a chuckle that's a two for one. Money is gone, girl is gone and other than the Lego kraken glue gun it's all wrapped up.

Now that the horrible inappropriate chatter is done. Take a look at what you need, set your world as best you can to meet the path you want.

If the kraken gets used would imagine a bowl of popcorn would be in order as life is coming for her too. Rest a moment watch gomikasu because she may now be chasing that chicken.

I planned to CTB this july before I went back to America and did the deed. We were FWB and I told her I would be gone soon and she wanted to meet one last time. We ended up not having sex and just had a talk about her life until now and how she's struggled, or so I thought. In fairness this relationship was probably doomed from the start. I don't live in this country or with her so the glue gun isn't an option unfortunately, and even if it was I'd just be ruining things I spent my money on.

I don't know a bigger revenge would be getting a better girl that's better than her in everything and treats you better, and then spoiling her. She would seethe over that shit. I don't fw your plan at all.

I don't really want another relationship to be quite honest. This relationship "started" with me telling her I was going to CTB and wouldn't see her again. Throughout the entirety of it I still have been wanting to CTB, the only reason I haven't since then is because it would make her sad.

 

[gomikasu]

Prior to anything happening she ended up wrist cutting, due to money issues, and had to go to the hospital for stitches. I also got a promise that she'd prioritise me from now on, but I'm skeptical because this promise has happened a few times before with minimal change. I think this is the first time she's cut during our relationship. There was one other potential cut scar during our relationship which she said was a cooking accident and was nowhere near as bad. There's only 2 possible instances in the 9 months we've been together makes this really hard to distrust especially given the state of her arms prior to us meeting. I haven't talked about this very much with her so it's incredibly unlikely she got an idea of what I might be doing and this was done with the intention of making me stay and continue funnelling money into her. I'm really conflicted on one hand I don't feel very loved but on the other I can't really abandon someone in that state of mind, even more so when it's the woman that I still love. I guess there's always the possibility that I'm just paranoid and she actually has been spending the money on hospital bills and tuition. I don't have any concrete evidence, but I feel like there's been enough circumstantial evidence that I find it highly unlikely. I did end up contacting a lawyer but that has been stalled for obvious reasons. This also leaves me with the ultimate break up in the form of an involuntary hospitalization, though I feel like I lack the language skills to pull this off. I can't imagine there are many classrooms where they'll teach you the vocabulary and speech patterns needed for a situation like this.

 

[Ozzyno]

Don't even waste your time looking for love. There is no woman in this world capable of loving. They are just looking for personal interests. Try to find something else as a dream and don't even try to have a family or a stable happy relationship. If you don't you will end up just like me, I'll definitely kill myself in a couple of months.

 

[identity0]

If i am following this correctly, she cheated on you multiple times and youve sent her a lot of money, but you still love her and dont want to abandon her? It is fucked up, she's untrustworthy, and i think you should stop this shit, that's all i can say

 

[gomikasu]

If i am following this correctly, she cheated on you multiple times and youve sent her a lot of money, but you still love her and dont want to abandon her? It is fucked up, she's untrustworthy, and i think you should stop this shit, that's all i can say

It's pretty much that I made a promise to myself to try to live for someone elses' sake for a year, I have autiam to thank for making me stick through this. In my eyes CTB is a win for me. I have several >90% success rate methods that I have near immediate access to, so once that year is up and I still want to CTB then it is free for the taking. I'm well aware that this is an incredibly abusive relationship, which I find very funny considering her ex was also super abusive and to be quite honest I'd much rather have the shit kicked out of me and be raped than have my mental being in a terrible state. There's also the fact that I just don't care anymore. Nothing makes me happy and I haven't been for over 2 years at this point. Nothing holds value to me, I've got more than enough money saved that even at the rate I'm buring through my savings, I'll still have plenty by the time that year is up. I have no other people I care enough about to warrant me reconsidering. For several years every night I hope to just not wake up, unfortunately that hasn't worked out yet :(. I'm just done with life and was prior to meeting her. This is just my final stand as proof of I tried to live and that I'm just not meant for this world.

 

[gomikasu]

Pretty sure it happened again, even better part is that this was on christmas for the double tap. I think think CTB might get expidited to the 31st or the next time we meet. So I only have a week left of suffering at most on the plus side. There are points in time when I feel loved, but when I really need her she's never been there for me, while from the start I've always been there for her. Thanks 5 am call to pay for her taxi home after a night of partying without me in the first week of our relationship. Plus side is that I've got a her full name, address, phone number and the number of the guys she's playing with, so I started signing him up for all kinds of spammy services like bad online colleges(devry, phoenix), religious origisations and loan companies and using his workplace as his address. If there are any other ideas I'd love to hear them.