fallingbehind
Passed down like folk songs
- Mar 22, 2025
- 149
Im living off nothing. After I got robbed, I took myself to one of the highest bridges within walking distance during the night. I climbed over it, and stood there for about 5 minutes. I determined that the height could have seriously injured me, but it was no higher than 30-50 feet, so death was up-in-arms. As I stood there, a man passed by in a car, stopped and stared at me. Didnt say anything.
Im going to proceed with jumping. I tested my fear level, something I struggled with a lot, but I didnt feel any fear towards the height or the fall, just weariness at the height. I couldnt tolerate it if I ended up paralysed or brain dead.
I feel stuck. I feel totally stuck. I have to wait to travel to a cliffsite, and it seems like all my methods fail me one after the other. What if I go and I get caught, or something else happens and I fail? This is my one shot. I cant fail.
Im going to proceed with jumping. I tested my fear level, something I struggled with a lot, but I didnt feel any fear towards the height or the fall, just weariness at the height. I couldnt tolerate it if I ended up paralysed or brain dead.
I feel stuck. I feel totally stuck. I have to wait to travel to a cliffsite, and it seems like all my methods fail me one after the other. What if I go and I get caught, or something else happens and I fail? This is my one shot. I cant fail.
