Venting Feeling shit again

[Ilovemycats]

I feel like shit again, which is quite a shame because I genuinely was having a good day today.

My mom was just talking shit again, I'm not sure how we got to those points because I was too tired to deal with anything so I was a bit snappy and sarcastic which she didn't like and just had to say how I should stop playing the victim and how she doesn't know if my behavior is coming from the manga's I read or if I feel more arrogant because of my therapy visits. And that I should just stop already.

Like- what do you mean my behavior is coming from some books I read? She doesn't even know what they're about- sorry but I find it a wild accusation. Same with the therapy thing, that hurt the most because I don't exactly wanna go to those sessions, it been kinda forced on me and she is saying that I do it willingly. As if I asked for it.

It doesn't help that I already feel like my feelings aren't valid and she is just making it worse by saying things like that. I just wanna cry and cut myself for comfort and as a punishment for making her upset...

 

[pomie]

its really painful when the people who are supposed to love and care for us are the ones dragging us down even further, im sorry that in your time of need you are not finding support at home.
Your feelings are valid.
its best to conserve your energy and dont waste it on her during fights, and also remember to not give her words so much strenght, you are not what other people perceive you as, as long as you yourself know its not true (easier said than done)