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Prescott241
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- Oct 9, 2022
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A very significant reason why I am choosing to CTB is because I feel very strongly that my life in particular has no significance. I admit that this is a petty thing to say, but I have a need to feel like I play a significant role in the world around me. I think many people feel the same way, but are too embarrassed to ever admit to it. I think beyond the basic survival needs people have, there can be other needs depending on a person's own psychology and circumstances. A better way to describe this feeling is to imagine feeling like you are a small creature in the grand scheme of the world. I feel like an amoeba that is aware of the immense number of higher functioning creatures that exist, and wanting very badly to become something greater than just an amoeba. If someone is happy being an amoeba in the grand scheme of life, there is nothing wrong with that. I personally feel heavy discontent with my position in the world, and my lot in life, to the point of rather dying than continuing to live. As far as how my spirituality fits into this, I feel that the cycle of death and rebirth is inherently benevolent, and progress continues no matter what. I think it is a misconception to say that after death, we could reincarnate as something lesser than what we were, such as an insect, animal, etc. That isn't to say that our next reincarnation will be pure bliss, but it will be inherently better fit to teach us the lessons that we weren't able to learn in our current lifetime. I believe that my next lifetime will be objectively better, whether it means having higher status, a better family, better social environment, so long as these benefits act as a vehicle for greater spiritual growth.