Wyldfyre4948
Waiting for my bus
- Jul 12, 2023
- 377
With thanksgiving this week I'm definitely not sure how I'm going to hold everything together. Being around all my family with their kids and how they all are seemingly happy. They know about my depression and suicidal tendencies. I keep trying to put on a happy face but I feel like they can all see through it.
Recently I got scolded for my social media posts because I was sharing depressing stuff. They told me how they invested in me and how I'm scaring them. I told them how I just was using that to vent, but now I feel like they're watching my every move.
They already know that I won't be participating in Christmas this year. Basically I can't afford gifts for anyone and I don't feel like celebrating anything. Of course my family is still telling me to put together a list for myself. As if I don't feel low enough as it is, and they want to give me gifts when I can't give to anyone else.
I just wish things could go back to how they were.
Recently I got scolded for my social media posts because I was sharing depressing stuff. They told me how they invested in me and how I'm scaring them. I told them how I just was using that to vent, but now I feel like they're watching my every move.
They already know that I won't be participating in Christmas this year. Basically I can't afford gifts for anyone and I don't feel like celebrating anything. Of course my family is still telling me to put together a list for myself. As if I don't feel low enough as it is, and they want to give me gifts when I can't give to anyone else.
I just wish things could go back to how they were.
