feel like shit during valentines day

[Yume Nikki]

It's been three months since me and my ex split but I've been struggling to move on during the Valentine's Day season. I made the horrid mistake of accidentally checking his profile on Instagram and noticed he changed his icon to a picture of his left hand with a ring on his finger.

Now I can't tell whether or not this is a romantic implication but just the idea of it breaks my heart knowing fully well we aren't together anymore. I don't miss him but I miss the idea of being in love with someone and sharing that emotional connection. He was physically good-looking, but abusive during our time together. It sucks waking up with nothing to do or to look forward anymore because you're lonely and sad. Now everything is quiet.

I've currently been looking into the idea of lucid dreaming so I can atleast date or marry a fictional crush of mine from a movie so I would be able to move on but it's incredibly difficult because my brain cannot tell whether or not I'm in a dream yet, it's the only thing that helps me cope during this season.

 

[Peace2peace]

u need something to distract your mind try and engage in an hobby or possibly try dating again could be online

 

[Yume Nikki]

u need something to distract your mind try and engage in an hobby or possibly try dating again could be online

I'm distracting myself through video games which is helping me alot, however, I don't want to try dating again as I am still grieving the past relationship and don't think it's fair to put that extra emotional baggage on a new person. I'm not in the right place mentally to be with someone else.

 

[Peace2peace]

I'm distracting myself through video games which is helping me alot, however, I don't want to try dating again as I am still grieving the past relationship and don't think it's fair to put that extra emotional baggage on a new person. I'm not in the right place mentally to be with someone else.

Fine just keep your mind of and probably block your ex on all social media to avoid stalking

 

[radiohead]

my brain cannot tell whether or not I'm in a dream yet

i did that for a while, the counting your fingers whenever changing your setting thing started to work within a week. the whole thing is about consistency but find a method which works for you . i tried others and they weren't quite as good but i forget which exactly :d
i believe it to be a bad coping method so i stopped bc losing my friends every day was horrible . be smart idk

wasn't ever great at it so sorry if i am lying

 

[Yume Nikki]

i did that for a while, the counting your fingers whenever changing your setting thing started to work within a week. the whole thing is about consistency but find a method which works for you . i tried others and they weren't quite as good but i forget which exactly :d
i believe it to be a bad coping method so i stopped bc losing my friends every day was horrible . be smart idk

wasn't ever great at it so sorry if i am lying

No worries, it may not be the most effective coping method for my situation, but I prefer to be in a dream rather than the waking life as reality is already too painful for me to endure. My ex has already moved on and blocked me on everything so I'm trying to escape my pain as much as possible to avoid suffering from heartache. If you don't mind me asking, how did it cause you to lose all of your friends? is it due to oversleeping or being too invested into dreaming above everything else?

 

[radiohead]

is it due to oversleeping or being too invested into dreaming above everything else?

i meant waking up. i didn't know anyone at all in person at the time lol