feel happy thinking suicide soon

[sevennn]

feel happy when thinking of suicide today. today = sunny day. would be nice to go today. if i lived alone = go today. anyone want to die when it's sunny? feel soothing. sorry posts = cluttering forum. just didn't feel sad thinking of suicide today. first time. suicide thought = doing it = felt peaceful. maybe acceptance near. going through all grief stages for myself. could rotate. never reached acceptance. today reached. feels funny. calm