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thislife77
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- Oct 9, 2023
- 26
I feel suffocated by constant fear. I am in a constant state of fear. There is no escape from it. It only dims down a little when I am on here because I find relief in knowing that there is a way out. However, that relief is only temporary. I cannot commit to a CTB method because they all seem so hard and scary. I also do not have much money or sources available. It is so damn tragic that people get stuck in these horrible situations. I need a CTB method. I do not want to leave this body just yet. I want the comfort in knowing I have a CTB option ready to go if things become irreversibly messed up. I already suffer a great deal of mental turmoil every single moment of every single day. I just need a way out when I am ready. I cannot suffer like this until a "natural death of old age"... F that honestly. I would not want to physically deteriorate slowly and become more and more disabled. That sounds terrifying.
I want to be able to enjoy music, animals, and good food for a little while longer before I go. I used to love traveling, but my fear of crowds and planes is too much. I stay in the house most of the time because I fear so much. It's rough.
A friend would be nice, too.
I want to be able to enjoy music, animals, and good food for a little while longer before I go. I used to love traveling, but my fear of crowds and planes is too much. I stay in the house most of the time because I fear so much. It's rough.
A friend would be nice, too.