Fear of the future

[drmihilo]

Don't you have that feeling that there is nothing in the future for you but pain and suffering? A meaningless education, a meaningless job, a meaningless retirement and old age, and then an equally meaningless and moderately painful death... I would like to leave this world by taking advantage of N, but I can't (for obvious reasons). All that remains is to continue to exist. And that prospect scares the hell out of me. You know that a human life is about 30,000 days. THIRTY THOUSAND DAYS, which must be filled with something, something to strive for, something to do, something to suffer from. The horror.

 

[Danielwc]

I feel the same. In my life anything good that ever happened, happened 20 years ago. I'd be so happy to be told I had 6 months to live. At least then the end would be in sight. I do want to ctb but am worried. If we cease to exist there is no problem. Say life goes on and we are forced to be with the beings that set this world up, perhaps we get reincarnated in an even worse position. I don't even trust death at the moment.

 

[redeyepiranha]

I feel you, even when good things happen to me, I still remain suicidal, it's all pointless to me, i don't get any satisfaction from them. I constantly think about the future: study, work, marry, old age, die — it makes me nauseous.

 

[Kundalini Guy]

That's the main reason am CTB'ing. I know I will be suffering more in the future but I won't allow it to happen anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also wish that I had N, a peaceful exit from this hellish world is certainly what would be ideal, to me it's certainly horrific to think about being trapped here for potentially decades longer. I've never had any interest in this futile struggle that I was so cruelly burdened with where all that is inevitable for us as humans is suffering, loss and decay. It's a curse to have the ability to be conscious and aware, trapped inside the flesh prison that is the human body, I've never wished to be here and never could do. To me those who die certainly are fortunate, I certainly see life as being something best avoided.