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c4di

c4di

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Oct 9, 2025
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im not a horrible person but not a good person either so i always end up thinking of the possibility of hevean or hell existing, i dont like the idea of living eternally whether its hevean of hell but im obviously way more afraid of hell. again im not a horrible person but i didn't do anything good either to think i deserve to go to heaven, if anything ill probably go to hell which is just suffocating, what type of life did i have for me to only have the two options of suffering in life which is hell or going to actual hell and getting tortured for eternity? sure there are other possibilities of what happens after death but its all just personal beliefs with zero proof of being true, its not like someone came back to tell us what its like, the chance of suffering more than what im going through now forever puts me in a really bad mental state. i dont think this fear is enough to stop me from CTBing but i really hate it
 
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dragon.//

dragon.//

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Nov 5, 2025
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Once you study all the the different religions of human history you will notice multiple patterns, anyone with the brain size of a peanut can tell that religion is simply a man made concept driven by existential uncertainty.
 
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Untoten_

Untoten_

Will be CTBing this year.
Jan 29, 2026
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im not a horrible person but not a good person either so i always end up thinking of the possibility of hevean or hell existing, i dont like the idea of living eternally whether its hevean of hell but im obviously way more afraid of hell. again im not a horrible person but i didn't do anything good either to think i deserve to go to heaven, if anything ill probably go to hell which is just suffocating, what type of life did i have for me to only have the two options of suffering in life which is hell or going to actual hell and getting tortured for eternity? sure there are other possibilities of what happens after death but its all just personal beliefs with zero proof of being true, its not like someone came back to tell us what its like, the chance of suffering more than what im going through now forever puts me in a really bad mental state. i dont think this fear is enough to stop me from CTBing but i really hate it
In Christianity, Hell isn't what you think it is. Hell is merely the absence of God. There is no "lake of fire" it's literally just the absence of being with God or feeling his presence.

And you don't wake up there or just spawn there. Theres a whole trial/ceremony Catholicism and Orthodoxy are slightly different in how they handle things (depends on what you believe is the real church).

Catholicism believes that suicide is the biggest tragedy and genuine mental health issues are overlooked and forgiven. In fact the Vatican prays for those that do.

Orthodoxy is slightly different, they're similar in believing that it's the biggest tragedy, but theirs is more circumstantial, but they're the same with mental health issues. Orthodoxy is quite literally warlike in its nature, if you look at who adopted it, mainly Byzantium surrounded by enemies, so they understand truly it seems like there is no way out. Therefore it takes ALOT to drive someone to that point, then whatever has lead up to that point made it seem like there wasn't many options.

Protestants? I have no idea, none at all.
 
OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
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I haven't murdered anyone, but I look back on my life and see sin after sin. In fact, I think it's my misdeeds that so distorted my mind. I'm sure that modern science has refuted the biblical creation story and thus the whole thing, but some fear remains.
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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Once you study all the the different religions of human history you will notice multiple patterns, anyone with the brain size of a peanut can tell that religion is simply a man made concept driven by existential uncertainty.
Yeah.

And more so if u read books about the brain , cell biology, evolution etc
 
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DreamingOfAutumn

DreamingOfAutumn

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Jun 15, 2022
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the chance of suffering more than what im going through now forever puts me in a really bad mental state
I don't think it's a bad thing to remain skeptical about the idea of death solving all of our problems. Although I couldn't provide you empirical proof, nobody could. You (in a purely subjective sense, setting aside how you appear to others) are not an objectifiable thing that we can measure, so what happens to you after death is outside the realm of this sort of proof.

What I can say is that there are some implicit presuppositions within some of our ideas about death, which are highly questionable. Consider the word "after", for example. It's a temporal concept that only has meaning when counterposed to a before. But temporal continuity is tied to identity and memory, both conditioned by relations within the world, we know that it's possible to lose access to much of the latter even while alive, and the former is something that slowly changes during life as well. We can probably infer that death would remove all access to memory, after all I have no memory of anything before I was born, or even prior to being two years old or so. If this is the case, then anything that we could even conceivably experience after death could only be spoken of as "after" in a misleading way relative to our present life, and in truth it would be a first moment followed by an entirely new sequence of memory.
 
bananaolympus

bananaolympus

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Dec 12, 2024
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I get you fear of the unknown is humanity greatest fear and death is the embodiment of that, not gonna tell you x thing happens after death because nobody knows for certain, but thing like this would god send you direct to hell? He is an all knowing god so he does know the pain and predicament you facing to consider ctb, think of what would you want to happen when your time comes whether by ctb or not
 

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