... anyone here that can maybe give me some serious insight into what its like being older?
seriously wanna know? you' not gonna like this. believe me it don't get any easier. as we age, every day that goes by, our bodies can pick up all kinds of nasty shit like viruses, STD's, cancer, injuries, and weird shit like love, and divorce, and tinnitus, anxiety, aspergers, depression, aches & pains, toothaches, gout, potbelly, blury vision, forgetfulness, and then it gets worse. you lose your job. even worse, you lose your mojo. lol. clothes just don't look good anymore, and dressing in young peoples clothes just looks stupid. going to bars is a fucking disaster, people steer clear of the old troll in the corner. and then it gets worse. grey hair. really, old guys with dyed hair just looks so fake and stupid, and every day of my life i regret things i did or didn't do, and everyday i wish i was successfully ctb all those other times i tried and failed, and the opportunities i missed. then i got to watch as my family & friends died, one by one, and now all my peeps gone, and i'm not gonna make any new friends, i'm too closeted, and agoraphobia keeps me trapped in my house. every time i leave my house it cost me money, so i don't go nowhere. and then there's spending way more than i make, and so debt piles up: car repairs, house repairs, medical bills & pills, food, heat & electric, internet, tv, rent, weed, booze, and addiction to ebay & amzn. and that's just some of it off the top of my head. but as i age, i didn't get any wiser. and i barely learned from the school of hard knocks, because i keep doing stupid shit that i regret soon after. i'm just as stupid now as i ever was. oh fuck this, i'm outta here. let me off this fucking planet, i got to go. now are you glad you asked?