Discussion Fear of failure

[UmbraDweller]

I hate how there isn't a singe method that's completely reliable (not including euthanasia which is not an accessible option for me and most of us).

So far I find jumping the best option because it seems to have least amount of risks - hard to screw up falling unless you choose a bad spot, seemingly. There are still ones who survived Golden Gate. People who live with half their faces because they aimed badly,
severed limbs, brain dead paralyzed bodies with almost no life left inside of them forcibly tied to a hospital bed against their own will with no option to leave...

And that's extremely terrifying.

My only desire is to leave this world, yet I'm so discouraged to even try. I don't want to have any failed attempts, to risk being "saved" by some hero wannabe, having my family find out, being talked into getting "help", manipulated to love this sick joke by some sunny rose life is beautiful ignorant asshole who's job is to keep me enslaved, or end up as vegetable joining those unfortunate souls who now have to counter even greater miseries simply for wanting to exit life they didn't even ask for.

It requires so much mental gymnastics to overcome this meat suits survival instincts, lots of work to make peace with death and fears of it's gory process, and yet still if you get there it's not even certain that things will turn out in your favor.

What an utter bullshit.

 

[hikikomorizombie]

100% relate. after some research, jumping's the method i've decided on too, bc my dream 1's aren't available for me. if it's high enough it's really foolproof, w a 98% fatality rate. compared to other methods, like hanging's 70% or the abysmally low # for automobile suicides, it seems gr8. but the damn SI for it is sooooooo potent. i've gone to my jump spot twice for a 'test run' of sorts, lol, & each time it felt like there was a physical barrier stopping me from getting close to the ledge. i was considering taking sleeping pills to help numb it out, but i don't wanna risk falling all fucked up bc of it & landing legs 1st or smthg.

if possible, every1 should get to choose exactly how they want to die. unfortunately medically assisted suicide will never be legalized for the US. i'm interested to see how Canada continues to develop it.

 

[throneofdispair03]

I'm sorry to hear that you're going through this.

 

[FuneralCry]

The thought of trying to die going wrong is just so incredibly horrifying to me, I'm disgusted by how we were so unfairly forced into this existence in the first place and yet cannot just choose to reliably die in peace, this anti-suicide society where humans do all they can to make suicide so inaccessible truly is so hellish. Nobody should ever have to struggle to be free from this existence, I also feel trapped here, I really wish that the option to fall into an dreamless, eternal sleep is there.

 

[The Schizoid]

Find a train fast enough or a building high enough and that will 99% get the job done.

 

[4g1vvvven]

Find a train fast enough or a building high enough and that will 99% get the job done.

Spooky name tbh, I don't think it is that successful