Father went on a drunk rampage.

[Seiko]

I escaped the house and walked to a nearby family member's house. My sister got there first, me next, and my mom last.

They're all in the car crying as my family member is driving us a city away. "It's not safe here," my mom says. "He'll come."

That was yesterday. Today I got my mom food and hopefully he's calm enough that I can return home. I can't miss school.

Met up with one of my friends and he gave me a pep talk. He said he's my ride or die. It's good to have people like that. He's also been through it.

Woke up to a couple of missed calls from my dad. I'm not quite sure what to tell him. I just don't want him finding out where my mom is.

Things like this make me question my own drinking -- I'm not even old enough but I, myself, go through about a third of a handle a day.

My mom wants a "trial separation." She's talked about this before with me, but always leaves it up to my choice. I don't want that responsibility.

I just hope whatever happens, it doesn't interfere with my CTB plans. Things like this just glide off me like rain on an umbrella. I think I've already made up my mind about CTB.

Anyways, just thought I'd share.

 

[sevenkarmas]

Sorry to hear this. In my 29 years of marriage, I never laid a hand on my wife or called her names during arguments. It sounds like your mom may be co-dependent. I'm glad you have a friend to help you.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Getting the hell out of there was the first, best step on a better tomorrow for your mom. I wish her strength to see this through and to the rest of your family. I hope your dad can come to the realization that he needs help and actually get some.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like such an awful and stressful situation to be in and I'm sorry that you have to endure this. There really does seem to be no real relief from suffering in a life like this, but I wish you the best.

 

[Seiko]

Thank you guys for the support. Just to be crystal-clear: it never gets physical. If that ever happened in my presence -- I'm intervening in a safe way.

Came home and touched base with my father. He did apologize and said it all spiraled from a situation at work. He took some time off until next year.

But what I can't wrap my head around is that he can retire right now. No matter how you run the math -- they have enough assets to never work a day in their lives. Something to talk about with him, I guess.

My family is still shooken up; but I'm still holding strong. I just at least want everything stable before I CTB. That's the only straw I'm grasping for. I don't care much about anything else.

It's only a couple more months. I'm 20 right now. I can purchase my CTB boom stick pretty soon on my next birthday. And if there's anything that brings solidarity, it's that.

 

[releasespieces]

Alcohol is the worst. I met someone once who was well experienced with every substance abuse you could think of and he told me that the worst of them all was alcohol… after years of my own experiences, I wholeheartedly agree with him. Alcohol can be so incredibly destructive and the worst part is that it's easily accessible and people make excuses for it because it's legal. People take no responsibility for their behaviors because you know.. I was drunk is such an easy scapegoat. A life long friend of mine started when he was 13 and it progressively got worse to the point where he can't live without it at the age of 42.. he just drinks all day, gets belligerent and violent… so sad to watch him fall apart.

If you're young… stop now! If alcoholism runs in your family, which it sounds like it does… stop now! It will only destroy your life and those lives around you until you do. It will be much more difficult to stop once you're older, deep depression kicks in, regret for the things you've done and the the guilt associated with destroying your life.

 

[Green Destiny]

Sorry to hear that friend. I know what it's like, my mom and former step dad fought for years with yelling and screaming and the cops getting called on them. It's a truly terrifying experience that messed with my head and scarred me. People who yell scare me now.