Fat Guy.. No Date In 20 Years, No Sex In 25.. I am just done....

[MichaelAlone]

I have been depressed for a very, very long time. I just cannot handle the loneliness anymore. It just seems that I have no future other than work and sleep. Humans are social creatures, and without connections I might as well just not exist.

 

[Life_and_Death]

im not saying this to be offensive moreso to understand, maybe theres a medical reason or something, so please dont take offense, i really dont mean it that way.
why not try to lose the weight? i mean even getting a date aside, it would be physically healthier for you

 

[Nirrend]

I have been depressed for a very, very long time. I just cannot handle the loneliness anymore. It just seems that I have no future other than work and sleep. Humans are social creatures, and without connections I might as well just not exist.

We give you love mate, I think that this the most warm thing we can do <3

I don't want to say banalities because I don't know everything you've tried in your life and I understand how you feel, I just hope that if you choose to fight again against what you're going through, you will find happiness !

 

[MichaelAlone]

Well, it is more the obesity caused medical issues. Diabetes, peripheral neuropathy (lost a toe and shattered my foot 2 weeks ago due to something called Charcot foot so I was in the hospital for 12 days and now will be in PT rehab for 2 weeks, and I won't be able to stand for 12 weeks. I also found out I have the same process in my other foot. I feel like someone walking through a minefield and the next step I take is the one that takes me out. I m an extremely independent person, and being bedridden and not even able to wipe my ass without strain and pain and it is taking a toll on my mental health. I just really want it to end.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'm alone, too, and have been for the past 25 years, as far as being in a relationship, anyway. I haven't had sex with a woman in this entire 25 years. Truth be told, once I hit 40, I gave up, anyway, as that was the age when I told myself, if I wasn't married by then, or at least in a relationship, and if I didn't have children by then, that was it for me. Sixteen years later, that still holds true. All of my relatives have now died, my mother being the last to go last year, and I find myself utterly and completely alone. I have no friends, either, as they all got married years ago, had children, and even have grandchildren now in some cases, and they all have their own lives. And since I didn't get married or have children, the friendships just faded away. I have no desire anymore to even have a relationship with anyone. My sole focus is on getting some things wrapped up and taking a (relatively) quiet exit out of here, before I have to deal with some health issue all alone, too. No thanks. I can take the hint that life has given me.

 

[Life_and_Death]

Well, it is more the obesity caused medical issues. Diabetes, peripheral neuropathy (lost a toe and shattered my foot 2 weeks ago due to something called Charcot foot so I was in the hospital for 12 days and now will be in PT rehab for 2 weeks, and I won't be able to stand for 12 weeks. I also found out I have the same process in my other foot. I feel like someone walking through a minefield and the next step I take is the one that takes me out. I m an extremely independent person, and being bedridden and not even able to wipe my ass without strain and pain and it is taking a toll on my mental health. I just really want it to end.

i totally understand that dude

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I have been depressed for a very, very long time. I just cannot handle the loneliness anymore. It just seems that I have no future other than work and sleep. Humans are social creatures, and without connections I might as well just not exist.

I'm the same. Just work and sleep. I don't care about being social anymore. I like my alone time. I can't imagine 25 years without sex.

 

[MichaelAlone]

I'm the same. Just work and sleep. I don't care about being social anymore. I like my alone time. I can't imagine 25 years without sex.

Well, while I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing, here goes. Up until the last day or two, when I looked in the mirror, I didn't really like what I saw but I didn't really think about it. Probably in denial if I am honest.

Maybe I am just reflecting because being stuck in bed has given me time to think. I just looked into the mirror, and what I saw staring back at me is the most hideous disgusting image I can think of. You know since I was 20, no one I knew ever offered to set me up with someone they knew, even if they know how lonely and rejected I felt. I was never angry, but I guess in the back of my mind I harbored some resentment towards everyone because I didn't understand how no one knew anyone that would be looking for a nice guy (which I still think I am.) But now I understand why… I wouldn't want to date me, nor do I think anyone else could possibly find me desirable now or ever. I have a bad back and am on an opiate patch, but the shame and humiliation amd the emptional pain it has caused/is causing I am just starting to feel is even worse than the physical pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you have suffered so much in life. It is sad how so many people live lives which are just pain and misery. Life really is so unfair and I am horrified that so many health conditions even exist. It is cruel how the society tries to force people to live when they do not want to be here and they have no quality of life. I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief from your suffering.

 

[theboy]

Oh very hard. I hope you find peace