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painofzed

Student
Dec 15, 2021
117
I'm heading to the gun store in about two hours and then will be getting a hotel room and "checking out". I feel pretty good about the decision, I hugged my wife and kids extra hard this morning before I sent them off for the day. I hate that it has come to this, but I just can't stand to be a part of this world any longer. I'll be checking this thread and will reply as I can, I'm not sure if I will make "updates". I'd like to thank everyone here that has helped me throughout the years.

Edit: Update the gun store wouldn't sell me a gun :( I can't even succeed at CTB
 
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reyonrays

reyonrays

Death brings peace, the ultimate release.
Oct 27, 2024
74
Sorry to hear that, i wish you a peaceful and smooth journey! Good luck! 🕊️
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,212
I'm sorry that life brought you to this point.

Good luck, I hope you find peace!
 
SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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Best wishes on your finding peace, life is hard and choosing to leave it just as challenging.
 
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SA1994EC

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Jan 28, 2021
326
I feel your pain for your wife and kids. And I feel your pain for yourself and the world against you. Whatever your decision and the outcome are, I wish your soul and spirit to be at ease and at peace.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,965
I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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tirednwired

in the end everybody loses
Oct 28, 2024
43
Sending you love and luck with whatever you decide to do:heart:
 
maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
1,918
Have a smooth, painless transition.
I hope you find peace & love 🌹💔
 
an alien

an alien

out of this world
Oct 27, 2024
55
Holding you and your family in my heart. I'm so sorry you've been driven to this point. May you find and know peace <3
 
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painofzed

Student
Dec 15, 2021
117
Update: The gun store wouldn't sell me the gun :(
 
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Whydaddy

Whydaddy

You can ask what you want to the satellite
May 6, 2024
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Why wouldn't they sell it to you?
 
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My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
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Why wouldn't they sell you the gun?🌹💔
 
Sunshine

Sunshine

Experienced
Jan 11, 2019
214
I'm heading to the gun store in about two hours and then will be getting a hotel room and "checking out". I feel pretty good about the decision, I hugged my wife and kids extra hard this morning before I sent them off for the day. I hate that it has come to this, but I just can't stand to be a part of this world any longer. I'll be checking this thread and will reply as I can, I'm not sure if I will make "updates". I'd like to thank everyone here that has helped me throughout the years.

Edit: Update the gun store wouldn't sell me a gun :( I can't even succeed at CTB
Why did you impregnate a woman several times if you are so depressed that you want to die? You just keep the cycle of depression and suffering alive by traumatizing your kids deeply next so that they might end up here too. If you want to commit, you will and it is your right, but what is it with the need to have sex and make babies beforehand?
 
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Goosechan

I'm so tired
Nov 1, 2024
85
I'm sorry about your update. I hope change comes your way soon, either change to keep on living or change that will make you able to CTB. You deserve more than suffering. I hope your wife and kids can comfort you in the meantime❤️
 

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