animetal
a confession, a cadaver
- May 8, 2023
- 81
Everyone in my family is starting to become like very horrible to me . My mom had done nothing but speak ill of me since the day I came out the womb I never meet her expectations. All she says is horrible things about me and wonders why I have all these different personality disorders I feel like I can't be anything. Both of my sisters are being horrible so it doesn't help that I'm a middle child . I have my sister 300 dollars so she wouldn't give get evicted and I always give her money when she needs it yet she promised to pay me back. And now she's ignoring me after I sent her so many messages . My little sister is turning into my mom so I feel I have nobody . My grandma obviously had favorites. And I can't confide in my uncle because he will just tell my mom since they're siblings . The only person I have is my cousin . And I can't avoid . I barely have a lot of memories due to trauma o just feel like I'm wasting space . While I was in the hospital for a suicide attempt my mom said how peaceful it was when I was gone … seriously? I want to not exist I hate being in this body after being sexually abused. I hate it here it's like being born in this family is a curse with all this un healed trauma . I feel so unloved. Nobody should have kids if they're just going to not love them for who they are. I feel so helpless and alone . I had a positive mindset but I wish I was still in the hospital atleast I didn't feel like a disappointment there. And I had met my soulmate I don't have him anymore k don't think there's anything left for me here
I feel like I never had a chance in this life to begin with it feels good to rant on here where I don't feel horrible for expressing myself or my feelings it's like a safe place here
I feel like I never had a chance in this life to begin with it feels good to rant on here where I don't feel horrible for expressing myself or my feelings it's like a safe place here
