I have come to the conclusion, just before I CBT that family and having people who have your back through the hard times, being there for you - is the most important thing in this world. I never had anyone there for me. My family were narcissistic and abusive. It set me up for a life of failure and low self esteem and self worth. No matter how much I tried. All i knew was the judgements by my family who saw me as a failure, a burden, someone who could never be good enough for them or this world....unless I did what they wanted all the time and still that was never good enough. Every attempt to better myself only created more of the same and drew the same types of people to me with the same judgements, like a moth to a flame. I was too weak and vulnerable to break out of the cycle, I trusted too much. I was not intelligent or attractive enough.... and now it is too late and im too old.
Still, some people do break out and create loving supportive systems and family's for themselves. They are given chances and opportunities, for whatever reason. If that is you and you truly dont want to CBT, then hang on to hope, even if it is just a tiny bit of hope. If you have youth, have looks, have intelligence, have at least something to offer this world, then things can change. Don't believe the lies your dysfunctional family tells you. You are worth it, you are good enough. Take every opportunity that arises, because things can change.
For those like me who are still good enough just as you are, but are never given a chance and sadly I know there many on here - then I truly hope you find peace and belonging where ever you go.
Still, some people do break out and create loving supportive systems and family's for themselves. They are given chances and opportunities, for whatever reason. If that is you and you truly dont want to CBT, then hang on to hope, even if it is just a tiny bit of hope. If you have youth, have looks, have intelligence, have at least something to offer this world, then things can change. Don't believe the lies your dysfunctional family tells you. You are worth it, you are good enough. Take every opportunity that arises, because things can change.
For those like me who are still good enough just as you are, but are never given a chance and sadly I know there many on here - then I truly hope you find peace and belonging where ever you go.
