Venting Falling back down the pit of insanity

[gnarly]

it seems I have lost to myself again. Unable to sleep or dream. I only vision myself as a monster at the end of everything. Someday I will be in hell. As the hole of insanity consumes once again. I do fear I will one day break. But when I break I will do good with it for I know in the end I will rot in infinite torment. I hope none of you hate my words. I know it can be.. corny or laughable to most in this world. But this is the best way I can speak my tongue and discuss my mind. Idk how long I'll be back on this website for those who recognize me.

 

[Forever Sleep]

That's got to be awful. To carry so much hatred towards yourself. I suppose I always doubt that it is deserved when people say it. I imagine the most monstrous out there don't even care about how they hurt others.

I wonder how many of us will end up in hell- if there is one. I'm not convinced heaven would be all that great though either. I'm hoping there's nothing. Just peace.