Failure after failure

[leot83]

I keep making the same mistakes, i have made bad decisions that have cost me a lot of money. I am impulsive, insecure and indecisive which does not help wjen having to make key decisions.
I was mentally abused by my mother and that has not helped me feel secure. At nearly 50 I can't see how things can change.
Anyone feel the same?

 

[blacksand]

Yes. I feel at my most suicidal when contemplating my regrets. All the opportunities I threw away for the sake of it or out of laziness.

 

[StupidCat]

Same I lost a shitton of money by doing stupid mistakes.
Not that I'm impulsive, I don't think I am. But something deep down inside me I feel like I don't deserve anything so I do shitty decisions. That's the only reasonable conclusion I came across.
I would like to scapegoat my troubled childhood too but after 10 years of living apart I don't think I should.