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MariV
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- Sep 13, 2020
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has anybody had any experience? if you do not absorb enough and donde faint? or faint but wake up again?
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From my understanding, the person I was talking to, they went unconscious then woke up and drank the second one.
Well they never e-mailed back and said they would.Who was it? Did they ctb?
amd why arent they able to drink it? pain or nausea? and what are the symptoms of a failed attempt. why asl for help when that means psych ward? horrible pain?Most people who survive vomit the first dose up and either don't have a second dose prepared or aren't able to drink it.
I haven't seen anyone who survived after taking a second dose
really u sure about this? i am about to ctb with SNThere's a notable chance of vomiting after one dose and not being able to absorb enough SN. After a second dose the chance of death is very high it seems.
When you feel so bad that moving is a hard task, drinking another shot of that salty stuff will be the last thing on your mind.amd why arent they able to drink it? pain or nausea? and what are the symptoms of a failed attempt. why asl for help when that means psych ward? horrible pain?
really u sure about this? i am about to ctb with SN
so anxious
oh cmon you flatter me. im just a random guy whos a bit tired of this. but its really hard to decide given the consequences of failing.Dear MariV, I'm afraid you're overthinking this, however this may sound "crazy", as suicide is the most serious act of a lifetime with no room for mistakes.
But this is the latest on a double-digit list of threads in which you ask for the process to be dissected in detail.
I empathize with you inexplicably, you're one of those people who have touched my heart and soul... I wish you the most peaceful and painless transition in the history of mankind.
But, my friend, none of us can provide you with the level of detail you ask for.
None of us have died yet so as to be reassuring concerning the process itself.
MariV, your life has been so full of pain and true suffering up to this point, that NOTHING during the process of dying can come close to what you're already accustomed to and have been going through on daily bases.
You are a brave man, a beautiful person, who should have nothing to be afraid of.
Be it SN or morphine, it'll be a walk in the park compared to the hell you had to live through thus far.
Look at it from that perspective - it will end the suffering, and it can't hurt more than continuing such a life would.
Sending you love and prayers.
You are a true fighter many of us can only respect and wish for.
wow...i rly dont know what to say. the uncertainty paralyses me. i have a chance to be alone tomorrow. last chance i will probably have. i really need to make up my mind.As long as you have enough time without being interrupted, one glass of SN should be enough for your 48kg of "resistance".
Even when you vomit, a few sips from a 2nd glass should kill an elephant... (a figure of speech, which in a "48kg" case gets the literal meaning).
So, the SN should be - it.
Are you ready for "it"?
No more postponing, prolonging, no more "what if" and "how much" threads... no more pain, mom's breakfasts, SS forum, sunrises and sunsets.
Are you ready? (I know I am)
Because if you're not at peace with that most difficult decision of anyone's life - we would love to have you here until you do make peace with it.
We are like a family now... to me you're not "random", you're a hero.
A hero with SN, morphine and a free will in his possession... with a mom that adores him and a community which supports him.
A hero who has endured so far... against all odds.
Your "5 cents" of contribution to the Infinite Consciousness and its evolution have more been like "5 dollars".
Thank you, on behalf of all of us.