birdofafeather
Just tired
- Feb 12, 2023
- 45
I failed. And now my pictures got sent to random people. I'm not sure who. Or where. I just know that my body isn't mine anyone.
When you trust the wrong people you get fucked over. He knew I was vulnerable. He knew I was suicidal. And he used me. And then when I fought back he did this. I wanted to have my dignity intact when I died. Now I can't even have that. It's stupid. I was going to die either way. Just now people are going to think I did it because of that and not for my own sake. People will ogle me and...
Now I don't even have the money for the most basic of methods. I have 90 pence in my bank account. Not nearly enough for any reliable method.
Why is there no escape?
WHY CAN'T I EVEN KILL MYSELF RIGHT?
THERE IS JUST NO FUCKING END.
THERE IS NO END
THERE IS NO END
THERE IS NO FUCKING END
When you trust the wrong people you get fucked over. He knew I was vulnerable. He knew I was suicidal. And he used me. And then when I fought back he did this. I wanted to have my dignity intact when I died. Now I can't even have that. It's stupid. I was going to die either way. Just now people are going to think I did it because of that and not for my own sake. People will ogle me and...
Now I don't even have the money for the most basic of methods. I have 90 pence in my bank account. Not nearly enough for any reliable method.
Why is there no escape?
WHY CAN'T I EVEN KILL MYSELF RIGHT?
THERE IS JUST NO FUCKING END.
THERE IS NO END
THERE IS NO END
THERE IS NO FUCKING END