failed attempt

[Hiraeth]

i just need to post this somewhere
i had a failed attempt today
it was just a quick thing, didnt plan it
took about 25 anti depressants an odd number of sleeping pills and some pain relievers but my body is weak and made me puke it up
i realized that no one would miss me though, so maybe now i can go through with SN as my main method

sick of doing random bullshit attempts and not getting anything from it but the overwhelming feeling of being a fucking failure lol

 

[Isittimetogonola]

There are only a few methods that are successful on the spur of the moment. That is one of the things I have learned here that preparation vastly improves my desired outcome.

 

[Soul]

I'm sorry, @Hiraeth - I know that's rough to go through; most of us here have probably gone through at least one "trial run". I hope it was at least a bit educational. (((Hug)))

Please take a day or two to treat yourself well - keep hydrated, get plenty of rest and fresh air and good healthy food. Then when you feel strong enough you can have a good browse through these resources, which could help you find better ways:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/resource-compilation.3/