failed attempt, woke up to me being fired

[lavendermeadows]

isn't that nice? this is my reward for not dying correctly. it's not fair. why is no method fucking reliable and the ones that are, are impossible to access? I am ready at this point to just jump off a bridge and go for it and I don't care if I suffer. I already am suffering. I really liked my job and it was a big part of me.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

Why did they fire you? I'm sorry about the failed attempt and the job

 

[lavendermeadows]

Why did they fire you? I'm sorry about the failed attempt and the job

definitely was my fault and just got caught but it's bc I planned on dying anyways so I just started doing whatever I wanted. it was a strip club I basically just started scamming the especially grimy customers by saying pay me this and I'll meet up w you later and wouldn't ever go see them lol

 

[DreamEnd]

definitely was my fault and just got caught but it's bc I planned on dying anyways so I just started doing whatever I wanted. it was a strip club I basically just started scamming the especially grimy customers by saying pay me this and I'll meet up w you later and wouldn't ever go see them lol

What method did you use if you don't mind? I'm sorry that happened to you

 

[bluemirror]

definitely was my fault and just got caught but it's bc I planned on dying anyways so I just started doing whatever I wanted. it was a strip club I basically just started scamming the especially grimy customers by saying pay me this and I'll meet up w you later and wouldn't ever go see them lol

Absolutely based. Interesting that you liked that job. What are your plans now, are you gonna focus on ctb or are you gonna find another job in the same field?

 

[lavendermeadows]

Absolutely based. Interesting that you liked that job. What are your plans now, are you gonna focus on ctb or are you gonna find another job in the same field?

probably bc they were so flexible with working with my breakdowns, alcoholism, etc… but nope my plans are solely CTB

What method did you use if you don't mind? I'm sorry that happened to you

overdose using the same meds my mom successfully committed suicide with. didn't work for me.

 

[notahappygirl]

definitely was my fault and just got caught but it's bc I planned on dying anyways so I just started doing whatever I wanted. it was a strip club I basically just started scamming the especially grimy customers by saying pay me this and I'll meet up w you later and wouldn't ever go see them lol

Are you a stripper ?

 

[lavendermeadows]

Are you a stripper ?

yes I was

 

[Praestat_Mori]

overdose using the same meds my mom successfully committed suicide with. didn't work for me.

Would you mind telling us which meds those were? I'm sorry you lost your mum to suicide and that you lost ur job and you had a failed attempt. This is awful.

 

[lavendermeadows]

Would you mind telling us which meds those were? I'm sorry you lost your mum to suicide and that you lost ur job and you had a failed attempt. This is awful.

Lexapro, Benedryl, Alcohol, Effexor. guess I should've known she just got lucky.
now I woke up with a stomach virus which makes literally no sense considering I haven't ate shit the past few days, the world hates me

 

[Dark Window]

probably bc they were so flexible with working with my breakdowns, alcoholism, etc… but nope my plans are solely CTB

overdose using the same meds my mom successfully committed suicide with. didn't work for me.

Sigh I'm kind of getting sick of seeing people using overdosing as a method of choice. I'm not sad you're still alive, but I just wonder why so many people try CTB via overdosing with meds, it's notoriously unreliable, it will most likely not work.

I hope you get better.

 

[lavendermeadows]

Sigh I'm kind of getting sick of seeing people using overdosing as a method of choice. I'm not sad you're still alive, but I just wonder why so many people try CTB via overdosing with meds, it's notoriously unreliable, it will most likely not work.

I hope you get better.

was trying to go out the same way my mom did lol but thanks. getting better isn't an option for me unfortunately. you can not get better when you have given up and chosen not to. I HAVE gotten better, and even then all that is, is living in la la land and throttling yourself through the hardships of life that sometimes can't be resolved.

 

[Dark Window]

was trying to go out the same way my mom did lol but thanks. getting better isn't an option for me unfortunately. you can not get better when you have given up and chosen not to. I HAVE gotten better, and even then all that is, is living in la la land and throttling yourself through the hardships of life that sometimes can't be resolved.

Fair enough.

I'd highly suggest not attempting with overdosing again though.

May I ask do you have access to guns, SN?

 

[Ironborn]

definitely was my fault and just got caught but it's bc I planned on dying anyways so I just started doing whatever I wanted. it was a strip club I basically just started scamming the especially grimy customers by saying pay me this and I'll meet up w you later and wouldn't ever go see them lol

Gave me a good chuckle haha.
Guarantee these people scam regular working folks in their day jobs.
Bit of karmic justice lol.

 

[lavendermeadows]

Fair enough.

I'd highly suggest not attempting with overdosing again though.

May I ask do you have access to guns, SN?

no and no otherwise that would've been my preferred choice…

 

[lixt]

Sigh I'm kind of getting sick of seeing people using overdosing as a method of choice. I'm not sad you're still alive, but I just wonder why so many people try CTB via overdosing with meds, it's notoriously unreliable, it will most likely not work.

I hope you get better.

Yes, it is more likely to get some chronic liver and kidneys illnesses

 

[lavendermeadows]

Yes, it is more likely to get some chronic liver and kidneys illnesses

ok I know this can I not be judged on using the ONLY MEANS that were in front of me in a time of desperation? idc if I get ill. I'm gonna succeed one way or another eventually. gonna hang myself today or tmmrw like I get it I can't even kill myself right

 

[vak]

ok I know this can I not be judged on using the ONLY MEANS that were in front of me in a time of desperation? idc if I get ill. I'm gonna succeed one way or another eventually. gonna hang myself today or tmmrw like I get it I can't even kill myself right

You should not be criticized or judged here, I'm terribly sorry it didn't work out for you and that you woke up and had to face the consequences I hope you will find a way to get peace