Failed attempt ended in coma

[Pointless life]

Hi all a few months back i tried to end it using the amitryptalyn method. Long story short i was found unconcious rushed to hospital and later admited to intensive care on a breathing machine for 4 days. Arfter i was discharged to a psyc unit and only got released a week ago. My parents had told me they were told to come up to see me as i was not expected to make it through the night but by all odds im still here. on the brief moment i was waking up i saw my parents crying before i passed out again and i just cant shake the guilt and selfishness i feel as i feel exactly the same now as i did before the overdose and all i can think about is re ordering the drugs to do it again. I had never been in a coma before but during ny breif 4 day coma everything stopped i had no worries stresses or responsibility and all i can think about is getting back into a coma to escape life and if i pushed it to far well and died well thats a bonus in my eyes

Not even sure why im posting this i guess i just needed to vent

 

[myopybyproxy]

I feel the same way - similar story as you although never was in coma.

 

[FuneralCry]

I have never been in a coma but it sounds so peaceful not having to experience anything. I know that it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[Sunset Limited]

You must have felt very bad. I wish you well my friend.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

I'm so sorry that you didn't get the result you wanted.

That same guilt is what keeps me here. I could never hurt my husband like that. I just couldn't.

As a result, I'm trying very hard to embrace what I can of this life.

I found that right after my most serious attempt was thwarted, I really got some benefit out of putting thought of ctb on the back burner for a while. It didn't stop them from coming back, but I was better able to deal with them after a few months.

 

[suysayd]

Isn't coma the same as sleeping? Was it different? Never experienced it myself.

 

[Pointless life]

Isn't coma the same as sleeping? Was it different? Never experienced it myself

Isn't coma the same as sleeping? Was it different? Never experienced it myself.

Coma is the lowest level of brain function you can go to. Unlike sleep you dont dream and you have 0 awarness its basically like you dont exist its hard to explain but i tried lol

 

[milly]

Isn't coma the same as sleeping? Was it different? Never experienced it myself.

Hm. Some years ago I was in surgery for hours. Later I missed the memory supressor pills and relived the blackout period: I saw my dead mom and brother burning in hell. Weird.

 

[Sherri]

in one of my attempts I took so many benzos , that i don't remember the ambulance, the tube up my nose to the stomach to pump me with charcoal. I wasn't in a coma, but when I woke up after many hours, woke up in the hospital bed. Didn't feel a thing. The only words I mumbled according to my nana is that I told the ambulance team, that I will go, but will end in my best clothes, of course I woke up in my pjs. Sorry for your sadness, I wanna wish you well. Hugs

 

[Crazy4u]

Thanks for sharing your story for us. I am sorry you had to go through all this.

I hope you feel better.

 

[PrisonBreak]

Thank you for your story.

How much grams of amitriptyline did you take?

 

[Depressed Cat]

Thank you for sharing your experience. My main concern with the drugs methods described in the PPH (including amitriptyline) is simply how long they take to CTB, leaving a large window where one can be found and interrupted. The doses to be taken also vary by one's weight and resistance to the drugs (if any). It's also not easy to swallow too many tablets at once.

 

[Pointless life]

Thank you for your story.

How much grams of amitriptyline did you take?

Had 7 grams with tagamat (cimitidine) also morphine and diazapam (valium) but still sone how survived no idea how

 

[NormaJeane]

Most suicide attempts fail.

 

[steviewonder]

I'm so sorry this happened. You poor soul :(

 

[contramundum]

I'm sorry this didn't work for you. How long after taking the pills have you been found? Maybe that was the problem

 

[Pointless life]

I'm sorry this didn't work for you. How long after taking the pills have you been found? Maybe that was the problem

Not 100% sure when i was found but i know for certain the fact i was found is why my attemp failed. The drs abd my family all said do i know how close i was to dying etc

 

[Oblivion]

Hi all a few months back i tried to end it using the amitryptalyn method. Long story short i was found unconcious rushed to hospital and later admited to intensive care on a breathing machine for 4 days. Arfter i was discharged to a psyc unit and only got released a week ago. My parents had told me they were told to come up to see me as i was not expected to make it through the night but by all odds im still here. on the brief moment i was waking up i saw my parents crying before i passed out again and i just cant shake the guilt and selfishness i feel as i feel exactly the same now as i did before the overdose and all i can think about is re ordering the drugs to do it again. I had never been in a coma before but during ny breif 4 day coma everything stopped i had no worries stresses or responsibility and all i can think about is getting back into a coma to escape life and if i pushed it to far well and died well thats a bonus in my eyes

Not even sure why im posting this i guess i just needed to vent

Selfishness? remember they were selfish in the first place when they wanted a baby cause you know its fun to have one, like buying a fucking toy.

 

[Pointless life]

Selfishness? remember they were selfish in the first place when they wanted a baby cause you know its fun to have one, like buying a fucking toy.

You have a point there. I never asked to be dragged into this world

 

[LADY007]

Coma is the lowest level of brain function you can go to. Unlike sleep you dont dream and you have 0 awarness its basically like you dont exist its hard to explain but i tried lol

I remember when my husband had a colonoscopy and it was his first experience with the sedative drugs.. He wanted to stay there!!!

 

[Funeralprincess]

Hi all a few months back i tried to end it using the amitryptalyn method. Long story short i was found unconcious rushed to hospital and later admited to intensive care on a breathing machine for 4 days. Arfter i was discharged to a psyc unit and only got released a week ago. My parents had told me they were told to come up to see me as i was not expected to make it through the night but by all odds im still here. on the brief moment i was waking up i saw my parents crying before i passed out again and i just cant shake the guilt and selfishness i feel as i feel exactly the same now as i did before the overdose and all i can think about is re ordering the drugs to do it again. I had never been in a coma before but during ny breif 4 day coma everything stopped i had no worries stresses or responsibility and all i can think about is getting back into a coma to escape life and if i pushed it to far well and died well thats a bonus in my eyes

Not even sure why im posting this i guess i just needed to vent

What is the amitryptalyn method? I'd like to know

 

[befree]

What is the amitryptalyn method? I'd like to know

I think there is a spelling error. The OP probably meant Amitriptyline. I have a guide for this method.

 

[Euthanza]

I had this lil hole (diameter 2-3 cm) they drilled my skin or something at my back of spinal cord.
I don't know exactly what medical procedure was that but I also took diazepam mainly. Did they do the same to you?

 

[Funeralprincess]

I think there is a spelling error. The OP probably meant Amitriptyline. I have a guide for this method.

Can you share that guide with me