So just an hour ago I hanged myself (2nd attempt), felt uneasy and a bit dizzy... I did some noise due to the unease, I thought mom is washing clothes... And she was... But 2 or more minutes hanged and she barged in... They think I did it as a consequence of me playing video games... Now I am more suicidal than before... I feel so so empty now... And it's deplorable how pathetic my parents and the society in general is... it's miserable...
Failed attepemts can cause so much frustration and pain. But are you really sure you wanted to ctb knowing that anyone can enter your room at any time? I feel with you and I respect your wish to exit this world and it's such a difficult task for everyone to leave this world in a peaceful and dignified way. I wish you all the best!
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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To me personally the hanging method just sounds too risky if other people are in the building, as they could easily interfere, but anyway failing ctb sounds so horrible and is exactly what I fear, I hate how we exist in this world where we are cruelly denied the option to just peacefully free ourselves from all suffering without risks.
We have a wall-hole door (poor), where the door thingy goes into wall, so I guess it was easier for her to push in
otherwise I had planned it all well, made the knots days ago and stuff...Exactly!... And people just went on to enumerate struggle of my parents and stuff to convince me to "push" and "not lose hope" and stuff, it was fustrating and heart wrenching for me
