Story Experimental Therapeutic Services

[bluupup]

I'm so confused. I am in an ETS program and my main behavior I'm trying to change is SH. its not very big of a thing to me, but my mom and everyone else says I need help. I only cut to shallow fat / baby beans. I was talking to the ETS guy about what I do instead of cutting and he said that's also concerning and he'd never even HEARD of someone doing that... I feel weird. am I a bad person? I watch gore instead of cutting. Now I'm scared that I've done something horribly wrong.

 

[Canto XIII]

Premise: I'm no professional so don't trust what I'm about to say.

While I kind of agree watching gore is concerning as well, stating he's never heard of it sounds naive and potentially unprofessional (but then again, who am I to say). I don't think you're a bad person for that, nor that you have done something "horribly wrong" or unforgivable. Even within a moral paradigm, you only watched recordings of people do something, no matter how disturbing.

I would advise you to find another substitutory technique however. If nothing else, I can't imagine watching gore (or cutting for that matter) being good for your mental health.

 

[bluupup]

Premise: I'm no professional so don't trust what I'm about to say.

While I kind of agree watching gore is concerning as well, stating he's never heard of it sounds naive and potentially unprofessional (but then again, who am I to say). I don't think you're a bad person for that, nor that you have done something "horribly wrong" or unforgivable. Even within a moral paradigm, you only watched recordings of people do something, no matter how disturbing.

I would advise you to find another substitutory technique however. If nothing else, I can't imagine watching gore (or cutting for that matter) being good for your mental health.

thanks for the input, he's been in the therapist field for about 12 years? he's usually an art teacher at juvenile halls and such as a side job. I know cutting and gore aren't good for my mental health, but its all I can find that works currently besides fighting people irl or doing opioids.. and I really don't wanna go back to doping out in class and fighting anyone who looks at me. it was horrible..