Experiences seeking partners for CTB

[not_a_robot]

This is not a new partner-matching thread, so don't get your hopes up.

I am just looking for people to tell me what problems they have run into while seeking, and failing, to find the right CTB partner, so I will know what pitfalls to be careful of in my own search (I have already had a couple of partner-fails myself).
I already know the usual stories (person wouldn't show up),
I guess I'm looking for details on the more unusual ones; how weird it can get when seeking a suicide partner/things you did not expect.
I assume it's similar to internet dating, but less sexual and more death-oriented.

(Keep in mind your failure-partner may still be on the forum, so let's not try to start any fights.)

 

[Catch_The_Beaver]

Maybe my reply comes late, but whatever.

I have little experience, but a lot of motivation, in finding a partner (pity the megathread is closed and I cant post myself). My experience has been one of rejection and outright indifference. I guess that I'm either too picky or too late when it comes to finding a partner.

I wouldn't call it dating, as it implies that it will lead to a relationship in a future that I dont have. I think it's more of a "mutual masturbation" of sorts and the feared orgasm is the suicide.

 

[inconsequential]

The main issue that I've had in finding a partner, and why I no longer am seeking one, is that they don't want a suicide partner.

They want a PARTNER. And I'm not here for that. Here not being this forum, but all of existence.

I don't want to date. I don't want to fuck. It's weird. I've had experiences with men wanting to fuck me as I CTB, and can we even THINK about the implications?

I more get that dudes want to fuck and/or murder me than be my bus stop buddy. And that's fine.

(I lose faith in humanity every day.)

 

[Painted Bird]

No experience myself as I don't need/want a suicide partner, but girls beware of all those horny guys out there as suicide partners. Just like @inconsequential said, it's very likely you meet someone who actually wants something different than you do. Like sex, and when being rejected, raping you anyway and messing you up badly.

 

[Empty Smile]

Sex is the last thing on my mind. All I want is to ctb and get it overwith. But if sex happens, it happens. I'm not going to fight or rape just to get my willy wet one more time.

 

[Throwaway9787]

The main issue that I've had in finding a partner, and why I no longer am seeking one, is that they don't want a suicide partner.

They want a PARTNER. And I'm not here for that. Here not being this forum, but all of existence.

I don't want to date. I don't want to fuck. It's weird. I've had experiences with men wanting to fuck me as I CTB, and can we even THINK about the implications?

I more get that dudes want to fuck and/or murder me than be my bus stop buddy. And that's fine.

(I lose faith in humanity every day.)

Have any asked you to ctb In the woods. I bet there are actual predators on this forum

 

[thisplaceisaprison]

I don't know if I'm allowed to ask this - but with the partner tread closed, where else are you guys looking?

 

[inconsequential]

Have any asked you to ctb In the woods. I bet there are actual predators on this forum

Two have wanted to use the woods, one wanted me to come to his home. Where he had roommates.

 

[Throwaway9787]

Two have wanted to use the woods, one wanted me to come to his home. Where he had roommates.

yikes

 

[Empty Smile]

Have any asked you to ctb In the woods. I bet there are actual predators on this forum

I want to ctb in the woods, with or without a partner, but I'm not a predator. Don't label everyone as a predator.

 

[Morphinekiss]

I want to ctb in the woods, with or without a partner, but I'm not a predator. Don't label everyone as a predator.

Same. I like nature, not killing people.

 

[Throwaway9787]

I want to ctb in the woods, with or without a partner, but I'm not a predator. Don't label everyone as a predator.

I didn't? I said I bet there are predators on this forum. Any person who is willing to walk into the woods to kill themselves with someone, especially with a male if you are a women is naive and placing themselves in a possibly very dangerous situation.

 

[Saga]

is it really possible to find one?...if i had to i will choose a woman...as i am one myself...i know some will be fickle minded but it would be nice to have a dying buddy as well as a companion in the afterlife or even purgatory...im not making fun of this but i honestly never thought that it wasnt possible as most of us wants to go alone...and well not include others...

 

[Throwaway9787]

Same. I like nature, not killing people.

I didn't say liking nature = liking killing people. I meant it come off as odd for a man to solicit females into the woods to kill themselves together. That's all. I have nothing against nature or wanting a ctb partner.

 

[bath salts]

is it really possible to find one?...if i had to i will choose a woman...as i am one myself...i know some will be fickle minded but it would be nice to have a dying buddy as well as a companion in the afterlife or even purgatory...im not making fun of this but i honestly never thought that it wasnt possible as most of us wants to go alone...and well not include others...

I share the same thoughts. I've been alone all my life, I'd like to spend my last moments with someone at least. Tried to get my friend to be there when I ctb, but she said it would be too hard for her... I get that. Maybe this would be something more worth looking into.

 

[Empty Smile]

I meant it come off as odd for a man to solicit females into the woods to kill themselves together.

So is it odd when a female wants to ctb in the woods and wants a male to come along?

 

[Throwaway9787]

So is it odd when a female wants to ctb in the woods and wants a male to come along?

No it's naive.
I'm not saying you're a predator if you're a man and want to ctb in the woods with a female. But it's something a predator would do and it isn't smart for a woman, or a man for that matter, to go into the woods alone with somebody you met off a suicide forum. I'm saying it can come off odd, to me atleast, for a man to solicit someone of opposite sex specifically to ctb in the woods. I have nothing against nature I have nothing against partnering up. I just think it can be dangerous in certain scenarios. Some scenarios and settings more-so than others.

 

[Saga]

I share the same thoughts. I've been alone all my life, I'd like to spend my last moments with someone at least. Tried to get my friend to be there when I ctb, but she said it would be too hard for her... I get that. Maybe this would be something more worth looking into.

never really looked into this before...but well idk i might look for one not sure yet as i dont have means of travel

 

[Empty Smile]

I'm saying it can come off odd, to me atleast, for a man to solicit someone of opposite sex specifically to ctb in the woods.

You're repeating yourself. You're making it sound like only men are the bad guys. Why is it only odd to you when men ask a female to go into the woods to ctb?

Are women not capable of luring a male into the woods and possibly raping and/or murdering a male?

 

[Throwaway9787]

You're repeating yourself. You're making it sound like only men are the bad guys. Why is it only odd to you when men ask a female to go into the woods to ctb?

Are women not capable of luring a male into the woods and possibly raping and/or murdering a male?

yeah usually the bad guys are men. Any statistic on crime will reiterate this. Im not going to argue about this anymore. Agree to disagree.

 

[Empty Smile]

yeah usually the bad guys are men. Any statistic on crime will reiterate this. Im not going to argue about this anymore. Agree to disagree.

Nice sexist reply. Good day.

 

[Throwaway9787]

Nice sexist reply. Good day.

how is it sexist? Because females commit less predatory crimes?

 

[TimeToDie]

Sounds like you ladies need an older man to CTB with, an old guy who can't get it up. It would be physically impossible for me to rape anyone, even with a mega-dose of Cialis. Even 25 years ago -- back when I actually got erections -- I still could never get hard enough to penetrate. Way back then I was plenty hard for oral, tough now she'd be sucking a limp dick. This would be one of the many reasons why I want to CTB.

I'm going alone since a partner seems like a huge hassle, finding someone who's close enough to meet and then having to find that someone who you actually connect with. And then there is my disabling social phobia which gets in the way of literally everything. With social phobia you do everything alone, including death. Plus the horrifying possibility that my partner ends up dead and I end up living to explain this to the cops. I don't want to explain a dead body on my property that got dead with the use of my gun. Thus far I haven't been able to off myself, so it would actually be a great advantage if I found a psycho-chick who would blow my head off for me though I don't imagine that I'd ever be lucky enough to meet such a special lady.

 

[bath salts]

never really looked into this before...but well idk i might look for one not sure yet as i dont have means of travel

Same here. Best of luck to you if you decide to!

 

[AngelGirl]

Nice sexist reply. Good day.

I think we as women need to be more careful because we are more exposed to crime than men, not because men are not exposed to crime.

Any kind of crime you can think of in that situation can be done on women and women make much better targets for those who are planning something shady. No reason to choose a man over a woman.

I would assume that if a man is going to be a victim in that situation it would involve more systematic crimes. Like human trafficking or selling organs in black market. It can also be just a hate crime, or just the other person happens to be a sadistic psychopath.

If there's a man and a woman in the woods, a 6ft fit man can easily take a woman whether she is petite like myself or she is bigger and stronger than most women.
If the woman in that situation is upto something shady, there needs to be at least two men secretly following them into the woods.
It's just way more costly for the criminals to have three+ for a crime instead of just 1, much more difficult to make it successful, and even if it was successful, a trafficked man is less of value than a trafficked woman because you can also take her organs out and you can also sell her out as a sex slave.

On top of that women are also exposed to more spontaneous crimes. A man and a woman go into the woods. Even if he was not planning to have sex with her initially, a man might think that he wants to have sex for the last time. If she refuses, he can easily rape her because they are in the woods and she was trying to kill herself anyway. But if it was woman who wanted to have sex and the man refuses, there's really nothing she can do about it.

 

[not_a_robot]

The main issue that I've had in finding a partner, and why I no longer am seeking one, is that they don't want a suicide partner.

They want a PARTNER. And I'm not here for that. Here not being this forum, but all of existence.

I don't want to date. I don't want to fuck. It's weird. I've had experiences with men wanting to fuck me as I CTB, and can we even THINK about the implications?

I more get that dudes want to fuck and/or murder me than be my bus stop buddy. And that's fine.

(I lose faith in humanity every day.)

Don't worry. I won't try to fuck you. Just know that, if you let me drive, we are going off a cliff like Thelma & Louise.

 

[bacardirum]

I can think of nothing more dangerous than meeting up with a stranger who is also looking to end their own life, this has to be far more dangerous than even randomly meeting a stranger on a dating site, just my opinion.

 

[not_a_robot]

No experience myself as I don't need/want a suicide partner, but girls beware of all those horny guys out there as suicide partners. Just like @inconsequential said, it's very likely you meet someone who actually wants something different than you do. Like sex, and when being rejected, raping you anyway and messing you up badly.

I had to learn the hard way that when guys get rejected by a prostitute, they go nuts. When they get rejected by a suicidal woman, they go even more nuts. And being rejected by a woman who is both? They completely lose their minds.
I feel like I spent half my life being badgered by men to make me explain that the reason I want to CTB is *because of people like them*, and they still never understood.

 

[inconsequential]

Don't worry. I won't try to fuck you. Just know that, if you let me drive, we are going off a cliff like Thelma & Louise.

Now THAT is a car ride I'd be willing to go on. And to have my non-robot with me? Ugh.

 

[Talpa]

is it really possible to find one? [...] it would be nice to have a dying buddy as well as a companion in the afterlife or even purgatory

I am wondering this myself, although I am still rather torn. On one hand I have a "live alone, die alone" mentality, but then again I think it would be kinda nice to have someone to die with and make some good memories, like Punpuns and Aikos last trip in Oyasumi Punpun if anybody read it. Maybe I could even say that I made a friend after all this time after all. But I can totally imagine the other person was just joking around or having a change of heart, shit like that. It would need to be a person you could trust somewhat. I have absolutely no experience in it admittedly and am unable to post on the partner thread since it was locked down for some reason, so I'll most probably never experience any of it and just go out like I lived.