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manic
dead again
- Nov 8, 2024
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hi so basically i have a bad case of bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder and ive tried almost every single treatment option and my therapist is now recommending ECT (electroconvulsive therapy) or ketamine treatment since its more new and apparently helps with treatment resistant depression or something (works as a mood stabilizer so apparently i wont get manic either) but i would have to inject it myself- i am a little scared with these options and my therapist said "why are you scared when you want to die? these wont kill you" but then i explained to her that im scared of the treatments working "too well" and that ill actually become stable. my family doesnt want me to do it either but since im an adult idk how that works. i am not sure about how i feel with these as my last option but it feels like theres no more hope for me.
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