Tomorrow Is Today
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- May 16, 2026
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Nothing feels original. I used to have a dream where I'd escape the clutches of society and just run away somewhere. Even that isn't original. It's already been explored and romanticised by past media. Perhaps that's where I got the idea in the first place, subsuming it into my identity and tricking myself into thinking that such a dream would give life meaning.
It is this way for so many other things in my life too. Academic pursuits, self-optimisation and relationships are all commodified as things that breathe meaning into existence, feeling no different from everyday goods that we use every day. It's pleasurable in the moment, yes, but there's that hollowness and element of fake happiness that creeps up on you. I've achieved and failed many of these arbitrary goals and after a while it just becomes numb.
I think it is only natural for me to seek an escape, as extreme as suicide may be.
It is this way for so many other things in my life too. Academic pursuits, self-optimisation and relationships are all commodified as things that breathe meaning into existence, feeling no different from everyday goods that we use every day. It's pleasurable in the moment, yes, but there's that hollowness and element of fake happiness that creeps up on you. I've achieved and failed many of these arbitrary goals and after a while it just becomes numb.
I think it is only natural for me to seek an escape, as extreme as suicide may be.
