cath55555
Addict with a Pen
- Feb 5, 2022
- 63
just blocked an ex friend on every social media I could think of. I'm sad about it but I'm so angry at the same time that it felt almost good. this is the first person I've ever cut off; in the past, I've been the one being cut off. it's not a nice feeling exactly but I'm glad they're not in my life.
I feel so useless. I hate feeling this angry and I know I'll regret cutting them off.
but they were bad for me. constantly making jokes about my mental health, my ED, my appearance. my suicidal ideation.
on a kind of related note- I'm thinking of CTB soon. might have an opportunityto get SN, and if that fails, there's a bridge near me that I can get to and access... wish me luck whatever I decide please; I can't take this for much longer and I need to stop all of this, the anger, the hatred, the pain. I don't want to be me, but I can't change that.
not sure what the point of this vent is. again, maybe these posts are a "hey, I was here, I existed when I wrote these". either way? it's too much.
I feel so useless. I hate feeling this angry and I know I'll regret cutting them off.
but they were bad for me. constantly making jokes about my mental health, my ED, my appearance. my suicidal ideation.
on a kind of related note- I'm thinking of CTB soon. might have an opportunityto get SN, and if that fails, there's a bridge near me that I can get to and access... wish me luck whatever I decide please; I can't take this for much longer and I need to stop all of this, the anger, the hatred, the pain. I don't want to be me, but I can't change that.
not sure what the point of this vent is. again, maybe these posts are a "hey, I was here, I existed when I wrote these". either way? it's too much.