Everything ready.

[udusa]

Finally finished up everything.

Today I had my last meeting with friends, and even though they don't know I'm going to CTB, it worked out as a goodbye and a thank you for everything
I also sent some personal letters to the closest of them to let them know how much I appreciated them

I want to do some things for myself to help tell myself that I'm going to CTB for real and go away in peace. I love writing. Even if it's just for myself, I'm going to tell a lot of stories in my life in a personal private document, just to let everything out.

The method? All the things required arrived today. Completely relieves me.

I have 2 days left. I'll commit ctb on Tuesday's early morning.

In Sunday I'll take my personal time to write any idea I want and just sleep and rest. The plan is to wake up around 11pm and throughout the entirety of Monday start listening to a 24 hour Spotify playlist I made containing the most important songs that represent events in my life, so that I die while listening to the last one, in Thursday

I feel pretty happy, seriously. It's all going to end. I've been crying a lot, specially when thinking about friends and family, but it's something I have to do. There's no coming back.

 

[Gonnerr]

Goodbye, i really wish you escape peacefully.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Good luck in whatever you decide and hope you find the peace you deserve.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you find peace! Safe travels and good luck!

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel so relieved to have all you need to ctb, I wish you the best of luck with your plans.

 

[udusa]

Update: For some circumstances I won't be able to do it today, so I'll postpone it. I'll start listening to the spotify playlist tomorrow and ctb Wednesday early morning.
I don't want to delay it even further, I'm certain it will actually happen now.

 

[udusa]

Update 2: Had to postpone it. Again.

Atleast I've already started listening to the playlist. The idea is to get through half of it today, and finish it tomorrow and commit ctb in the last song. I'm a little angry that I couldn't do it today, but it must happen now.

 

[udusa]

Just two hours of the playlist left. It's getting close. It's finally going to happen...

 

[tinyghost]

i hope your journey is peaceful

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you all the best! May you find peace! Goodbye!

 

[udusa]

Going to do it. Right now. It was good meeting you guys. Thanks for everything.

 

[Vesiira]

Going to do it. Right now. It was good meeting you guys. Thanks for everything.

i hope you find some sort of peace. i'm sorry you couldn't do it in this life. <3 we all wish the best for you.

 

[antilife]

I hope you made it.

 

[bridgeluvr626]

Safe journey, friend