Rocinante

Rocinante

My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
Aug 26, 2022
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I was going through an old users post history and it saddened me. Everyone present now will someday post on SS one final time, then they'll never log in again. Whether that be due to them dying, moving on with life, or SS eventually closing down is uncertain, but it's inevitable.
 
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suicidalloser

Specialist
Jun 30, 2023
365
it's not sad when i die, it's a relief. not just for me—for everyone i've ever encountered in this life
except the pro-lifers who forced me to stay alive, clearly, in this job description, they wouldn't show it outwards, but inwards—yes; after all i was just some disposable stranger.
 
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MeltingBrain

MeltingBrain

Mage
May 29, 2023
569
No one stays at a bus station forever.
I was going through an old users post history and it saddened me.
Out of curiosity who was this member ?
 
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winamp

Enlightened
May 20, 2023
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funnily enough the site was down for a couple of minutes after I was finished viewing this

so in the event that SS closes down :( I hope that it is archived

which now makes me wonder if it is archived right now ?
 
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XdragonsoulX

Vengeance Incarnate
Apr 13, 2022
140
funnily enough the site was down for a couple of minutes after I was finished viewing this

so in the event that SS closes down :( I hope that it is archived

which now makes me wonder if it is archived right now ?
I had a whole panic attack when it didn't load and said it was down, downloaded a vpn to use to see if it was just a me problem, was thankful when it loaded tho
 
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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

Dead inside
May 20, 2023
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Leaving SaSu, and the wonderful people on it will be a very sad moment when my time finally comes.
I'm actually dreading making my final post and saying goodbye so much that the thought of it makes me tearful.
I have been treated with compassion and understanding by so many amazing and beautiful people here that I regard them as family.
 
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suicidalloser

Specialist
Jun 30, 2023
365
Leaving SaSu, and the wonderful people on it will be a very sad moment when my time finally comes.
I'm actually dreading making my final post and saying goodbye so much that the thought of it makes me tearful.
I have been treated with compassion and understanding by so many amazing and beautiful people here that I regard them as family.
me, wonderful? no—just an exception. annoying is not wonderful.
was the other one not influencing enough?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I think this applies to existence in general, eventually all we knew will be lost to death and forgotten about, existence is temporary and impermanent, for me the thought of this existence finally being forgotten about is the only relief, every second is one second closer to death and eventually I will be free.
 
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FormerlyFe(IV)

FormerlyFe(IV)

Snapped.
Jun 27, 2023
419
Yeah.

There was another forum that I frequented long ago. I eventually moved on but checked in once an year to see how things were.
It eventually shut down. It hurt to think that all those memories and posts and growth that I and others had are now lost in time.
 
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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

Dead inside
May 20, 2023
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Yeah.

There was another forum that I frequented long ago. I eventually moved on but checked in once an year to see how things were.
It eventually shut down. It hurt to think that all those memories and posts and growth that I and others had are now lost in time.
Was it Ash ?
If so, I was there too.
 
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FormerlyFe(IV)

FormerlyFe(IV)

Snapped.
Jun 27, 2023
419
Was it Ash ?
If so, I was there too.
Never heard of it. I was on VT/GT back in 2014ish. They were forums about sex and mental health for teens (13-19) ran by teens. They were nice, and I even was a mod for a while.
 
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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

Dead inside
May 20, 2023
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Never heard of it. I was on VT/GT back in 2014ish. They were forums about sex and mental health for teens (13-19) ran by teens. They were nice, and I even was a mod for a while.
Ash was from the nineties. It was a really good suicide forum.
 
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Grav

Wizard
Jul 26, 2020
660
eventually all we knew will be lost to death and forgotten about,
I can see final posts hitting harder here. There's a vibe of understanding among many members with our struggles and issues that the general world, even family and others "close" to someone don't have. But yeah, eventually even the people missing others because of their final posts will themselves go away.
 
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jazzcat

jazzcat

dark eyed and miserable
May 19, 2023
138
I also find it sad, I joined a little over a month ago so this is still somewhat new to me, sometimes I surprisingly find myself thinking about some members who made a goodbye post
 
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outatime_85

Warlock
May 17, 2022
774
When I make my final journal entry and have made the choice to either disappear into the ether of homelessness or turn out my light permanently, no one in the real world will miss me. No hiccups, no skipped days, no worries, no tears.

As for the site, I do not know if I will be missed; I never gave it much thought.

That said, looking around the site and seeing the interactions of members, I think it is safe to say most people on here will be missed, although it may not hit everyone on here the same way.
 
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loyalskateboard

Specialist
May 4, 2023
339
Honestly the thought of 'for the last time' haunts me with just about everything. Watching your favourite tv show before school? Getting picked up as a kid? Saying hello to a neighbour? Watching a certain movie? Logging off a video game? Saying "I love you" to your partner? Talking to online friends? Wearing certain clothes? Eating at a certain restaurant? Experiencing the release of your favourite artist's new album?

It's just so sad.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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Leaving SaSu, and the wonderful people on it will be a very sad moment when my time finally comes.
I'm actually dreading making my final post and saying goodbye so much that the thought of it makes me tearful.
I have been treated with compassion and understanding by so many amazing and beautiful people here that I regard them as family.
Yes I can relate to this 100% and it's the same here. This community is such a treasure! Although it's inevitable to leave and to make the last post sooner or later, it's still a bit of a sad feeling for me.
 
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