Does it trouble you to know that the majority of people you know will grow old, have children, get married, all while you're dead?
throwaway123
Hell0
- Aug 5, 2018
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Sayo
Not 2B
- Aug 22, 2018
- 520
No, because even if I don't ctb, it's improbable I will outlive the majority of my loved ones. I have brain tumours. There's nothing I can do about it. That doesn't mean it doesn't suck, but I certainly hope they go on to do those things and experience a rich life, if that is what they are capable of. What really hurts is watching it happen while I'm alive and being made aware of my own suspended existence.
I wish everyone around me as much joy in life as possible. Not having things in life is different to being sad that others have things, and I only have to be sad over that in life.
I wish everyone around me as much joy in life as possible. Not having things in life is different to being sad that others have things, and I only have to be sad over that in life.
I'm not sure why this would bother someone even if you are a young person who is planning to suicide. The last thing you probably worry about is this wen you're in pain and miserable.
Trashcan
Trash
- Aug 31, 2018
- 1,234
No. I have no desire to live to old age, get married, or have kids.
Not while I'm dead but while I'm alive. I'm actually terrified of thinking of my mum as a old woman. She's turning 47 in February and I'm turning 23 in March. Everyone else I don't really care about though I did start freaking out a hour ago about how I'm gonna be like 24-26 when the elder scrolls 6 comes out..
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,307
Life has been passing me by while I've been alive so no.
Because I hate when people are happy and I'm not. I hate to see people succeed when I'm doing nothing. I hate when people are in a relationship and I'm not. There's so much I hate because I know I could be like them but it's hard to be when you're depressed asf. If I died no one would care and they would carry on their lives being happy.
I get it :( I've always felt like I was looking in from the outside too. Never really achieving anything but also being divorced from sustained motivation or desire. There's intense emotional pain even when I'm asked about what I want out of life. I really don't know and can't identify it. I suppose a boyfriend would be nice, satisfying work, nice home, but I almost feel like im overwhelmed at the very idea of having to try to accomplish these things now at 41. People say it's not too late but for me it feels too late. I'm exhausted by life these days. I did also recently give up speed so that's part of the exhaustion.
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windingdown
Specialist
- Sep 10, 2018
- 367
Really not... When I saw the thread title, I thought exactly, get me out of this existence where we become old. I don't mind that other people do it, but I cannot tolerate aging. I don't want to have an existence in which I get old. It is a poor reward for hanging in there in life.
Im really struggling with the aging process. When I was young and attractive I didn't think I'd age like this lol! I swear when I hit like late 30's I was like oh fuck this is gonna suck from here on out. Hello saggy, wrinkly, crepey loss of elasticity in your skin. Even my eyes are no longer as attractive. Looks like I died inside when I look at them now. Probably the thing i miss most is the energy and how I looked in cute outfits. Shitty gray hair, makeup doesn't even help that much. I need a mini face and neck lift.
Lunar
Student
- Aug 14, 2018
- 188
No, it doesn't bother me. I barely know anyone anyway, plus they're things that contribute to the mountain of reasons why I feel life isn't for me. It's not because I want those things for myself rather that I don't at all. I don't know how to explain it properly, but it's like they have the desire to strive for things and I never have. It's this sense of being so driven and that's not something I experience.
BaconCheeseburger
Comfort-eating
- Aug 4, 2018
- 693
When I'm dead, it doesn't matter that people will pass me by. I'll admit I'll be sad to not see my family grow and develop. My nephew is going to have such a great life and I love him to bits, but would he want a miserable aunty?
Outside of my family, I don't care that people are moving on. They have been for ages so it's nothing new.
Outside of my family, I don't care that people are moving on. They have been for ages so it's nothing new.
windingdown
Specialist
- Sep 10, 2018
- 367
That's how I'm feeling at 31 (how you felt in late 30s). I was happy when I turned 30, I felt & looked great. Just before I turned 31 I started to lose my hair in droves and my face & body started to change in ways that feel horrible to me. Looking ahead things can only get worse. People have their different things, and I've learned this year that I just don't have the stomach for aging.
I dont give a shit about how long other people live. Im upset that I have to die so early. If you care more about how others live than maybe you shouldnt kill yourself and seek therapy.
