Venting everyday I feel more and more empty inside

[suprswag]

I feel like I'm slowly loosing emotions. I am barely happy, the only times I am is with my friends, parents/grandparents or my cats.

I cry very easily, like, just thinking about crying could cause me to cry a bit, but I've found it hard to feel sad.
I've been finding it harder to feel sad, happy, angry, just everything almost everyday. I'm starting to feel like an empty shell of a person, just skin and organs, with no reaction to anything.

I've been having to fake a lot of things to seem "normal". It's getting harder to do that too.
It's been harder to complete normal, everyday things. Like taking my contacts out before bed, getting out of bed, dress myself, etc.

I feel like I'm slowly dying, but not physically, just emotionally. Does anyone else feel this way?

 

[Wojaczek]

i am just so frustrated with being alive at the moment, everything seems so hopeless, everything seems to be out of reach and i dont even know what im reaching for.

 

[suprswag]

i am just so frustrated with being alive at the moment, everything seems so hopeless, everything seems to be out of reach and i dont even know what im reaching for.

I feel almost exactly the same, everything just seems useless.

 

[BeachyHeadLastOfUs]

It's good that you are happy when with your friends, relatives and cat. Those are some of the only things that make life bearable. Perhaps you could find a way to be with them more? For example, I have suggested to some friends I haven't seen since before Covid that we go to a board game club together. Maybe there is an activity you could suggest to them?

Faking things to seem normal is something I do as well and have been told by many people it's something everyone does.

The feeling of dying slowly emotionally is something I have felt for several years now. It's a clear sign of depression.

 

[BBBB]

Yes, I can relate.

 

[Source Energy]

Every day I discover in how many different ways one can die inside. I am already dead. I'm just a walking corpse, looking in from afar. The sadness is unreal. To "feel good" for me is when I'm numb.