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- Jun 27, 2022
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I don't think it's going to get better. I miss 8 months ago when I still had a normal body
Is this due to a medical condition or is this due to stress? Sharing the cause of this might give people ideas that could help. It coulod be worth it to share any possible cuases to see if people here have ideas- 19 is really young and maybe there is a way to get some improvement.I don't think it's going to get better. I miss 8 months ago when I still had a normal body
I'm embarrassed af. First of all I had anorexia which made me lose my period and weakened my bones and joints. Then I had an accident on a treadmill and repeatedly lifted too heavy during working out (irrational thoughts about how I have to do it or I'll die of a heart attack or get fat). Spine injury. The anorexia rush wore off when all of my friends left me because I was acting like a child. My parents denied the spine injury, and I had no one rational thought in my mind so I didn't go to the doctor's cause I was convinced it's going to make me fat (the doctor would tell me to stop working out and I'd get diabetes and die). So I worked out more, until it hurt so much I couldn't move. Then some stuff happened. And I started binge eating. EXTREME BINGE EATING like 30k calories 50k calories. Every day I'd just lay in bed, not able to move like I used to, in pain. And at first I'd just eat whatever there was in the house. Then I moved onto going to stores. Spend my whole high school scholarship on binge eating. It was mostly junk food, lots of sugar, no vitamins no protein. Wanted to ctb from the first day of this binge eating but it dragged onto 3 months (then I slowed down a bit but I still binge eat everyday so it'll be over 6 months now) I gained so much weight, I lost my hair, I still don't have my period.... The binge eating on sugar impacted my joints even more. The lack of movement (although I don't know how tf I was supposed to move) also didn't help, I've no muscle just fat. So yeah. Laying for 3 months straight made my skeleton hurt so much.Is this due to a medical condition or is this due to stress? Sharing the cause of this might give people ideas that could help. It coulod be worth it to share any possible cuases to see if people here have ideas- 19 is really young and maybe there is a way to get some improvement.
God! I can imagine the agony. I'm so sorry this is happening to you. If there are any solutions to these problems, I hope you can find them, afford them and hopefully they work for you. I'm really sorry. The pain.....I'm embarrassed af. First of all I had anorexia which made me lose my period and weakened my bones and joints. Then I had an accident on a treadmill and repeatedly lifted too heavy during working out (irrational thoughts about how I have to do it or I'll die of a heart attack or get fat). Spine injury. The anorexia rush wore off when all of my friends left me because I was acting like a child. My parents denied the spine injury, and I had no one rational thought in my mind so I didn't go to the doctor's cause I was convinced it's going to make me fat (the doctor would tell me to stop working out and I'd get diabetes and die). So I worked out more, until it hurt so much I couldn't move. Then some stuff happened. And I started binge eating. EXTREME BINGE EATING like 30k calories 50k calories. Every day I'd just lay in bed, not able to move like I used to, in pain. And at first I'd just eat whatever there was in the house. Then I moved onto going to stores. Spend my whole high school scholarship on binge eating. It was mostly junk food, lots of sugar, no vitamins no protein. Wanted to ctb from the first day of this binge eating but it dragged onto 3 months (then I slowed down a bit but I still binge eat everyday so it'll be over 6 months now) I gained so much weight, I lost my hair, I still don't have my period.... The binge eating on sugar impacted my joints even more. The lack of movement (although I don't know how tf I was supposed to move) also didn't help, I've no muscle just fat. So yeah. Laying for 3 months straight made my skeleton hurt so much.