Discussion Ever wish you could turn back time? If so, what would you do?

[reiko1337]

For me, I'd go back to 2019 and change some of my decisions. Life wasn't so bad that year, I actually had friends and a decent social life. But some of my god awful choices ruined it all and fast forward 4 years to now, I'm at one of my lowest points.

 

[Twntysix]

Jump from my school. Its not that high but maybe its easier to dead when i was still a little

 

[Walpurgisnacht]

Wait.
I await for all eternity.
Withstanding modernity.
Is where we must stay, today.
Now I know the nature of no urgency. Now I know why now is never gone.
Fleeting in this mode of making memories. Keeping up this pace of keeping on.

To live the dream in a time machine, you'll be waiting forever.
But you can make ever wait for you, do what you wanna do.

 

[leavingsoon99]

I would go back to when my mother met my father and do everything I could to turn them from each other. I'd do everything to prevent my birth.

 

[redbathingduck]

I used to think about this topic a lot and was at times a bit obsessed with it, as far as often having dreams of actually traveling back in time and doing everything over and 'fixing' everything. The more time has passed the less I was thinking about it and by now I have realized that I wouldn't really be able to change a lot of the things that made my life spiral out of control back in 2011 because they were all choices made by adults around me, and there would be nothing I could do against them or their decisions (that they often made for me without considering what I wanted). Nowadays the thought of traveling back in time and having to go through all those years again just sounds horrible to me. Like others have said in the thread, I don't really wanna prolong my life even more. Would prefer for it to just end

 

[downndone2]

Go back to 2018 and unfuck my life

 

[Tartuffe]

I'd love to go back to 2020 and offer myself a few words

 

[FailerQt.]

Every single day. I would change plenty of reactions to certain stuff in the past year. I would make sure to fix the mistake I did that made him hate me in the end.

 

[Darkover]

time travel impossible only the present moment exists

 

[WorthlessCoward]

I wish I could say something like "I would change everything and create the perfect life" but knowing myself I would make the same exact mistakes and end up in the same hellhole

 

[Ai-chan]

I would kill myself sooner

 

[Ki_Nam]

I would actually go back 20 years.

 

[janejackson]

There's so many pivotal points that would have prevented me from CTB, but it all boils down to 25 years ago when I was put on Prozac as a teenager. That was the domino that set everything else in motion and is the number one thing that ruined the rest of my life.

 

[LikeAPendulum]

I looked back on some old pictures, old videos, of me hanging out with my old friends, who have all but disappeared from my life. I wish I could turn back time and have one more go with them, but that's just wishful thinking.

 

[trashprincess]

Start my transition a lot sooner...

 

[enough of this]

Start my transition a lot sooner...

I would start defending myself a lot sooner. I always ran away from abuses rather than protecting myself from them. My running away only encouraged the bullies to continue bullying me. That pattern set up failure consequences for the rest of my life.

 

[pando12718]

if I could go back in time, I'd first of all give my child self a good hug. then I'd tell him that, life is not a race, there is no big payoff, that you are special in some ways, but don't expect life to be something extravagant, life has its phases, they come and go, most of the time its mundane, and that's where you are actually supposed to enjoy life. enjoy life with the people around you, even if they are not perfect, and also, learn to accept imperfect people, don't hold a grudge about everything. and, make good friends, be a better person, don't let your negative thinking and catastrophizing brain stop you from at least even trying to be 'normal'. being normal is fine, you don't have to understand the meaning of your life, the meaning of life is to breathe, and try to be happy, to smile, to talk with others, to be kind, to be content, life is not a mission, there is no grand reveal at the end, or a grand pay off, its a marathon. your parents aren't perfect, and they come from a very rough family, and that you will have phases in life where things just do not go your way, but at the end of the day, you will be fine, be grateful for the opportunities you have, and to just keep breathing, and try to step out more, there are good people out in the world.

 

[Doz]

The answer I wanna give is to unfuck my life but how could I do that if I'm even worse now than I was then? It wouldn't make a difference. I'd genuinely like to enjoy life and live it, but apparently this is just a setup for failure when it comes to my existence. So thinking realistically my answer is to just prevent myself from being born. The course of time would be unharmed because I have added nothing to this life or anyone else's.

 

[hevlalab]

I'd go back to May 20th before I ruined my future.

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

I would go back to kindergarten and stop myself from making friends. I would stay alone. I would try to just be normal and not speak much with my siblings. I would be more like a robot and just do what people wanted me to do. When it came to middle school, same thing. When it came to high school, same thing. I would also not do those things I did to make people laugh and would keep my mouth shut. Then I would go to community college and fail or drop out. Then I would just do what my mom and sister wanted me to do and just work at a job for the rest of my life. I would take the driving test but either fail or still be deathly afraid of driving, even though I'd be forced to drive in a car. Then my mom would want me to go to school again. I would go to school and fail as usual. Then I would find a job. Then with my money I would buy a shotgun and shoot myself. Oh yeah throughout all my life I would still be suicidal.

Oh yeah I forgot all the stupid shit I did I would not do the because I would not talk to anyone and keep to myself. I would struggle with self control but I would keep to myself so I wouldn't say/do things to people that I did before.

 

[jussrav]

For me, I'd go back to 2019 and change some of my decisions. Life wasn't so bad that year, I actually had friends and a decent social life. But some of my god awful choices ruined it all and fast forward 4 years to now, I'm at one of my lowest points.

Same covid struck i saw a friend long covid followed, brain tumour more long covid now I am at my lowest.

 

[thebookofdisquiet.]

Jump from the tall building I used to live in 8 years ago.

 

[アホペンギン]

Go back in time and prevent myself from being conceived of course, I'm convinced that I'm unwanted, my parents didn't intend to have me, they said it to my face.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

There are a few things I would do the other way around than I did them. Then I wouldn't be here.

 

[Alisalyx]

I wish I could go back in time not so long ago and do things differently

 

[Ijustwanttorest]

All I ever think about some days is turning back time. It's why some of those Isekai stories are one of the only things to hold my attention - someone gets reborn as a child with all the knowledge and experience they have now and they instantly end up in a far better situation without much effort.
I imagine myself in elementary school again, never having to worry about my grades or crying over math homework. I'd use the free time and the easiness of learning with a child's brain to maybe acquire some kind of skill and enjoy myself. Maybe I would actually make friends because I'd have the knowledge of what not to do. I'd help my mom more. Maybe I'd ask for psychiatric help before my life turned into an endless cycle of failure (people care a lot more about you when youre a kid). Then again, I would still have the complete lack of will to live, so maybe I'd just kill myself instead .

If I got reincarnated without cheats, I'd just kill myself tbh.

My kid life was already a lot better than my adult life. All that waited for me was disappointment and I couldn't be bothered to do something big and different since there would be no guarantee it would work.

Different story if I got born to a filthy rich family for example.

 

[Antoine_Roquentin]

I wish I could go back in time not so long ago and do things differently

The same is true for me, that would change everything and might have prevented my need to CTB.

But further back would also be good. If I might have looked for help earlier, everything would have been different.

 

[matt1968]

Lots of turnbacks.

Two I guess - one is in my teenage years to really use time to get some social skill and social capital. I buried myself in sports and academic work.

And then recently to around 2019 - fairly stable job and good people around. I had some bad coping mechanisms that got worse over covid and ran completely out of control after. To address those issues then.

 

[ThymeToLeave]

If I could go back with my current knowledge, I would be mistaken for a genius prodigy and probably get an opportunity for a different life. It would probably be just as bad as the life I've lived, but in completely different ways so at least it would be new.

 

[longdeaddyingsoon]

i'd go back and redo my life with the knowledge i have so i don't fuck up. maybe have a chance of making something of myself. either that or back to when i was 20 and had SN, be more prepared so i'd actually die.