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Sometimes it can work better to actually speak with someone instead of just typing words on a screen to vent it out. I feel like this often but given the opportunity, I don't even know where to begin.
I used to, especially when I was in the psych ward. I liked talking to other patients, since they could relate to being suicidal and depressed. These days, I'm fine just typing and not talking. I find it easier to organize my thoughts.
I still miss folks from the psych wards because they kept things in real life perspective - no sugar coating or clichés. Realest people I've ever met. I can type online just fine but in real life struggle with conversation with the cashier at the corner store at this point. I don't think this is uncommon for a lot of us.
I'm the same way. They were the only people I felt comfortable talking to in person because they could understand how I was feeling and didn't give me empty platitudes about life getting better if you give it more time or that I have so many things to look forward to. It made me feel less alone in the world. I often wonder how many of them are still around and didn't end their lives.
I think it is easier to organize your thoughts through typing. There's good space to do that as compared to talking face to face. I personally just don't feel like my words have left my head sometimes. Only thing is I wouldn't be able to say anything properly.
Same here. You also don't have to worry about being self conscious like you do when you talk to someone in person.
God yes! You could be farting it up while you're typing to someone but you have to keep those cheeks squeezed tight when you're talking to them in person.
Yeah after talking to myself for such a long time I feel like I need a break from me.
LOL :P
I'm now thinking all of us type to each other doing this lol!
Yeah that's exactly it. The human connection. What you say about it just being words on a screen rings so true.
Oh I'm quite sure there's a lot more we do while typing to each other lol
I'm really sorry. Would you like to talk about it? I'd be willing to listen.
Thank you very much for that, I appreciate the kindness a lot. But I don't think I should. You are suffering enough, much worse than I am, without my life's pathetic story in front of you.
Okay but if you never TRY, it's for sure 100% positively not gonna happen. For sure. You're right.
I understand how you feel. I feel that way too if I'm offered an ear from here. But please, if you actually want to talk I am ready to listen. Hell it could be helpful for both of us. And I'm pretty sure my story is just as pathetic as yours if not more lol
You are right, but i never managed to this in the past. Its incredible hard for me, like a blockade.Okay but if you never TRY, it's for sure 100% positively not gonna happen. For sure. You're right.
But wouldn't you rather have the chance?! I mean, c'mon. At THIS point, what do we have to lose? If she says no, fineeee, at least she'd respect the fact that you talked to her like a man, dude. Gives you a 50% chance instead of 0%, y'feel me?
This isn't meant to be rude, I mean this as a motivational thing. There's nothing to lose, darlin, I say go for it
I totally get that, it's totally not easy whatsoever. For sure a challenge.
Hells yeah. I have also e-mailed the Samaritans. Once, it was helpful. The second time (a few years later), not so much.
Thank you for your words. I'm sorry you get that reaction from people when you share your feelings. We always hear about how we should open up and share our darkest thoughts and emotions with the people in our lives but one wonders if the people saying this don't consider that many people don't have open minded and compassionate people in their lives.
That's unfortunate. Venting/connecting with people still helps me feel better. I don't have the discipline to journal, but when I did used to journal, I burdened people less with my feelings. Maybe a useful exercise would be to imagine a scenario/set of circumstances that would make you feel better. You succeeded in empathizing with me & as a result made me feel better. Can you envision a reaction from others that might provide you with some solace? I don't know exactly how this might help, but it just occurred to me. Someone on this site mentioned cleverbot, a website that allows one to converse with oneself. I'm going to try that.
I'm glad I made you feel better! I tend not to like imagining scenarios that might make me feel better cause when I come back from that imagination I feel worse about it not being reality.
I'm sorry about that mate. It's incredible how our minds can cost us so much in life. You ever tried contacting something like the Samaritans? You can offload whatever hell is bothering you and they're not supposed to judge you for it.
I have had that feeling many times I had to stop opening up though since I do not want to get involuntary held for sharing my thoughts. That is why I love this place this is really the only social activity I do. I'm not on any other forums or social media at all. I feel safe here to open up and nothing will be used against me. Of course I do this behind Tor and a VPN for the extra security and change my VPN location daily just for a little extra :)
Talking to Samaritans is unsatisfying because they aren't real people; you already know they only have one agenda to serve, and only one answer to give, so it's basically just like talking to a bot with no thought, just programmed responses. No matter what you say, their job is just to repeat their agenda.
