reiII
maybe there's something more
- Dec 5, 2023
- 55
i think i've figured out a true component to my reason and my motive.
the longer i am me the more i destroy the relationships around me.
but isn't that good? then no one will miss me.
maybe... but that's worse than burning alive watching myself self sabotage my friendships being upset over stupid bullshit.
soon enough my friends are going to find out there's nothing good about me. i'm just a black hole and no amount of love is good enough.
i can never have anything good. this is what happens and this is what i deserve. but it feels good... to deserve. even for a moment. i hope one day this will be over. though it feels good i hope people are lying when they say they care about me so. i don't want to hurt people.
i hope one day i will have written everything that resides within, and be snuggled up as i am now... warm... as though someone is holding me close. with my sweater and my jammies. warm. i would have taken my SN. and i'm drifting away. i've exchanged my last words with you. i have a fujin plushie in my decorated arms. nice and cozy. it's wintertime.
remember fujin is epic
the longer i am me the more i destroy the relationships around me.
but isn't that good? then no one will miss me.
maybe... but that's worse than burning alive watching myself self sabotage my friendships being upset over stupid bullshit.
soon enough my friends are going to find out there's nothing good about me. i'm just a black hole and no amount of love is good enough.
i can never have anything good. this is what happens and this is what i deserve. but it feels good... to deserve. even for a moment. i hope one day this will be over. though it feels good i hope people are lying when they say they care about me so. i don't want to hurt people.
i hope one day i will have written everything that resides within, and be snuggled up as i am now... warm... as though someone is holding me close. with my sweater and my jammies. warm. i would have taken my SN. and i'm drifting away. i've exchanged my last words with you. i have a fujin plushie in my decorated arms. nice and cozy. it's wintertime.
remember fujin is epic
