Discussion even my best friend agrees i should ctb

[exitsimulation]

the only friend i would feel comfortable sharing my plan with i decided to tell because i didnt want to just leave without saying goodbye and i wanted to know his input. he has had first hand insight into my mental and psyichal decline since 2018 and has seen me go from a extroverted party animal to a recluse in 24/7 chronic pain. he really doesnt want to see me go but even he has to admit its beyond cruel that ive been bedridden for years with pain and a degenerative neuroligical disease. icl a small part of me wanted him to help me fight it and come with me to hospital appointments to get the surgerys i need but long story short he understands why i need to ctb. he is a youtuber and going to be filming a documentary on my crazy life from drug dealing to becoming a succesfull DJ to prison and suicide. i will hopefully i post the link to the dox if he can edit it in time. i guess thats it, just waiting for the slow bus of death to arrive :/

 

[FuneralCry]

You are lucky to have someone who accepts and understands your decision. It does seem as though it's rare for people to respect someones decision to ctb as we live in a pro life society. It sounds so awful what you are going through and I see it as being so horrible how life can torture people in so many ways. I wish you freedom from suffering.