Story Even if I don't feel suicidal, I might have to kill myself cuz I can't afford to live - literally (and Benzo-alternatives)

[ChildrensITV]

I have been applying for jobs daily but with my spotty work history and gaps in my CV, I keep getting turned down. I am applying for the bare minimum job that is tangentially related to my degree. I am such a low-IQ fuckup that I can't even get a basic job. My bank account is dwindling. If I get down to my last few pennies, I might have to drink my SN strictly owing to not being able to pay for myself to live.

It's such a joke that I have to struggle to live a life that I don't want to. It's almost as if life is daring me to CTB. I can't even prostitute myself cuz I'm an ugly man. I can't even get my hands on benzos. Is there an alternative?

 

[Blue Elephant]

edit: Volunteer to work on a farm maybe!? I don't know, you might like it, it's fresh air, less people..